I Feel So Bad, I Want This To Be My Last Night, I Want It More Than Anything, But I Know I Wont Succeed, I Cant OD, Its All Been Locked Away, And Im To Chicken Do Anything Else, All I Know Is That I Want Out Of This Life. I Thought I Was Getting Better, Obviously Not.
Saddistraction
Saddistraction
Im A 15 Year Old Girl From England, I Have Been Suicidal For As Long As I Can Remember And Cutting Since The Age Of 12, In The Past Two Years I Have Taken 12 OD's, My Mum Only Knows About 1, I Dont Want To Die, I Just Want My Pain To Stop.
Im Lying In Bed, Just Thinking, And Then I Wondered, Isn’t It Amazing How We Can Train Our Brains, We Can Make A Lie Seem Real, We Can Not Just Fool Other People, We Can Fool Ourselves, It May Be Little, Like Telling People Your Okay, Your Not Upset, If They Believe It, We Somewhat Believe It Too! It May Be A Deep Dark Secret That We Lie About, That We Cover Up, Until Sometimes You Even Believe If Its True Or Not, But It Doesn’t Come Without A Cost, With Lies Comes Hurt, And The More We Hide It, The Deeper The Pain And […]
I Stumbled Across This Sight In Desperation, I Wanted To Know The Easiest, Quickest And Painless Way To Die, I Was At My Wits End, I Can’t Really Tell Anyone About How Im On Here, They Wouldn’t Understand, Say Its Bad, Im Intrested In Criminal Psychology, I Read Book Upon Book About Different Veiws, Watch All I Can About It, I Came Across A Programme Saying Websites Like This Just Hurt People More, There Dangerous And Poision Peoples Minds, I Totally DISAGREE! There Are Support Groups For People For Other Things That They Dont Look On As Bad, The Suicide Project Has Helped Me, More Than Anything Has Before. Reading […]
I Feel So Weird, Like A Zombie Or Something, I Finally Got The Courage, And Finally Told Someone Everything, Well Mostly Everything, There Are SOme Things Im Keeping To The Grave. Im Getting The Help I Need, But I Regret It, Im Sitting Waiting For The CAMHS(Child And Adolecent Mental Health Service) Crisis Team, And All I Can Think Is What The F**k Have I Done This For, Im Never Gunna Have The Chance Again, So Im Gunna Have To Go Thorugh All Of The Councelling Again, I Guess Its A Good Thing, Because I Know That Death Isn’t Really What I Deep Down Want, But It […]
Okay, So I Created This Account Just Now, But Have Been Reading Stuff On Here For A Few Weeks, I Guess I Should Start With My Story, I Dont Really Expect Anyone To Read It, But Here Goes Nothing…..
Im A 15 Year Old Essex Girl, Im Supposed To Be A Bit Of A Slut/Whore, Thats The Reputation Of Where I Come From, The Thing Is, Im Not. I Never Have Even Been Kissed, Never Had A Boyfriend, Never Really Spoken To A Boy, Because Every Man In My Life Has Let Me Down. My Dad Left When I Was 14 Months Old, He Left On […]