I’ll never get the rest I asked for, but I’m not alone… there’s multitudes of people who are long overdue for a rest but may or may not ever get it…
It’s so unfair!!!
Not suicide related
I’d definetly consider other guys these days. My boyfriend gives me little hope. Its a shame because we both relate really well and we’re both fucked up. I’m still very much attracted to him and I want him… but I don’t even know what the heck he even wants lol. I thought he was going to get his own place. Things didn’t work out with the owner. I even had to ask, he didn’t keep me updated. Why doesn’t he keep looking? And why would he want a nice and modern place? That’s picky. I’m fine with clean, older/old places (I’m in one […]
I finally passed my coffee course today. I don’t really care. Meh.
Wish I was dead so badly.
I’m merely waiting to die….
I don’t wanna do anything anymore.
I’m tired, but I can’t ever rest.
🙁
Feel free to mention what you have too lol. Just for fun. I’m not trying to boast here and you can skip the post if you don’t like it.
Here’s some stuff I have:
New nintendo 2ds xl animal crossing edition
Nintendo amiibo animal crossing (isabelle, tom nook, kapp’n, reese, cyrus, k.k slider, mabel able)
Lenovo t240 laptop
Logitech g935 headset
2 mousemoth plush keyrings
2 mice pins (that you can attach and remove from stuff)
Mousemoth pin
Mousemoth stickers
More mousemoth stuff
Brown fur mousy (only a toy sadly but she’s real in my heart)
Tails plush (sonic the hedgehog knows him)
Fluffy keyring
Suitcase
fucking tired of everything as usual. fuck off life, GO AWAY. GOOOOOOOOOOO AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWAY!
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when will i get my rest? 🙁
LIFE IS SHITTTTT
What is there left for me to do…. engage in this barista course that I’m rather hopeless at…
My unstable shitty job that I’m sick of…
I think I’m brain damaged from all the years of abuse (not physical)…
At least my ex is smart. He’s fucked up like me. He has talents though. Unlike me. I’m not smart. (My words)
I’ll try to arrange alternative arrangements for my mum in 1-3 months.
I can’t do this anymore.
I’m tired of pretending to be ok for my boyfriend. I’m tired of putting on a mask. I’m essentially making some things up to him so he doesn’t think […]
Not really suicide related
I keep thinking back to that woman who met her boyfriend online in that video game. after they met in real life a few times, she eventually applied for a visa and months later… she’s living with her boyfriend (she’s from europe, he’s from USA). how the fuck was any of this even approved? she doesn’t even have a job. Oh. I bet I know why everything worked out for them! Because her boyfriend is RICH! Yes, so he’s rich and he can pay for everything and anything for her. didn’t they (customs) ever suspect when she just visited that she was […]
I don’t even know what to write.
2:44am, can’t really sleep as usual. I have too much to worry about, too much on my mind, its never going to go away…
I wish something or someone would just fucking kill me…
I should soon really be making arrangements for my mum to live somewhere with someone else, she has some old friends she could stay with, technically.
I’m not getting any better at my shit job and my memory is getting worse… slowly.
Gosh yes please kill me
I already know I’m a bad daughter but I can’t really do this much longer. I can’t […]
Not entirely suicide related
Fumbling with my appearance more as of recently. Got my eyebrows threaded. It was my ex’s idea. I think it looks nice… I’m kind of enjoying this… I probably want to try even more things xD but I want to stay somewhat natural…
I still don’t really have any plans in place for end of life. There’s probably 6 or 7 months to go. I can’t predict the future… I’m beyond sick of working, I probably should keep looking for another job but I guess its not happening… Call me lazy, I do not enjoy working. 😛
I guess I’ll just finish off this […]
I want to kill myself
want to kill myself
to kill myself
kill myself
myself
everything has turned to shit again. and I’m not talking about my ex lol.
I can’t really keep going like this and my mum is unreasonable and makes my life hell but I’ve got to take care of her…
now i have to find us another place because she was screaming crazily at night and we have to leave soon… we were told that we have to
just send me to the grave already, I’ve had enough.
I don’t have the energy to do anything anymore.
I haven’t even told my ex this because I don’t want to make him feel any worse…
I really don’t feel like doing anything anymore. I’m going through the motions. I wonder if I’ll ever get another job or just end up stuck with this shitty one? I just imagine employers laughing at my resume and then chucking it in the bin. I’m not even on good terms at my current job. Dunno if I’ve already mentioned it but I’ve handed in a bunch of resumes lately, as usual I expect rejection or no reply… i’m still in the middle of my barista course but I’ll have to wait another week or 2 to get a place in their training cafe, so […]
Not suicide related…really.
I’m impatient. My first day in a training cafe wasn’t great, I had someone else there helping out as well, we did get the coffees out in a somewhat timely manner. I figure I need to get better at making them, seriously…But I have to wait one and a half bit weeks to go back there because its closed for that time. The teacher said I’ll need a few more times there.
I’m going to apply for some jobs tommorow, I’ll just approach businesses and hand in my resume (not necessarily coffee related). Look I don’t expect a reply, the job market is shit […]
I’m going to apologize to PatheticMale for wrongly saying that he didn’t care. I figure he doesn’t care now though. Let’s just make it clear – I didn’t want to talk to you anymore and I didn’t really want to tell you that. It was my own fault for putting up my info here and saying that others could talk to me in the first place.
I don’t want to talk to the majority of people online anymore. It seems that they don’t want to either – so hooray for both of us!
If we are on the same page, dear reader, not having to talk to […]
how do you turn off comments on a post? I can’t find the option. I asked before but I forgot. Regards..
Is a thumbs down/thumbs up option even appropriate for a site like this? This isn’t social media. And you can’t see who has done the thumbs down/up. I think its very open to misuse sadly. What if someone wrote a heartfelt reply and only got thumbsdowns… how would they feel?
I’ve reread over my last post a few times and I see how it can come across as judgmental and condescending and as an attack on others. Yeah, its not really helpful and I executed it very poorly. My shitty judgment told me that making such a post would be helpful.
If someone else had written that, I wouldn’t have liked to have read that.
I wonder how I can get my point across without sounding so condescending?
All I really wanted to say is that… to change your life, you need to go and do something.
(Which again defeats the purpose of this post because people […]
Stop… please… it wasn’t my intention to be a prick, please read this version instead: https://suicideproject.org/2019/03/regarding-my-last-post/
After being here a few years and then leaving recently, it appears that at least a few of you aren’t interested in changing your situation and just want to complain and wallow in pity.
This site has given you a safe space to do just that!
You never actually get anything done because you’d rather come here and complain about your life endlessly. If you need therapy, go and get therapy. If you need help, ask for help. Complaining isn’t going to improve your life, believe it or not.
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