A few months since  I haven’t write anything. But right now everything is so fucked up, I’m fucked up. I’ve been cutting again, besides I haven’t been eating and if I do. I just puke. So I’m back in this horrible shit, that’s called life. Somewhere in my mind I believe there’s hope, but is it there really hope? I just want to finish everything. Nothing makes me feel alive, nothing makes me smile. I’m dying inside, and nobody around me notices.
well it has been a long time since I didn’t write… And thanks to that and all the stress of school I realised my unimportance. Everyday that passes keeps making me just want to die. They can’t notice. Obviously they can’t I seem  to be so much better. They think I have overcome DSH and ED, but I haven’t. I just feel alone, hopeless, without someone to count on. Literally I just want to finish everything. This week has been the hardest, since my last day of school I can’t stop remembering everything, I went through with him**Long story, if you want to know ask** I wish everything was as it used to be a year ago, it just […]
I Keep waiting, for something to come up or change everything. I’m done. I just want to feel free.To end up all this pain. I just don’t know if it worth waiting this long. Im just wanting to end this. I don’t know what else to do. I have stayed here for so long, just because I Â thought I had something else to hold on. Something else to do. Someone else to make happy.
I just feel so lost. I really don’t have any idea of who I’m right NOW. Holding my life on my hands, cuz is just a matter or a second that […]
The worse world in the world is ”Disapointment” I just hate it. it makes me feel more useless than i’m. I hate it. I almost broke down to tears today, when she started to tell me that how much she was disapointed of me and a lot of shit. It felt like beeing staped on the back. And I just sat there listening.And the worse thing is that they know it. If that really doesn’t change I’m going to end with the problem. Me.
Keeping hopes up is hard. But I think that’s the one of the things, that keeps me here. Well today I made some exams, because the school terapist saw me sad and talk to me. I just broke in tears and I told her the hole story. Well because of that i did E x a m s today. They were weard. She made me write some stories, and i painted my family and I did a quiz. Well at the end of the day. I don’t know what to expect. The only thing that i know is that i love beeing alone. And i […]
Today was a fuck! I hated it. I give all, for making my parents happy, specially for my father. I want to give him everything perfect. Nevertheless the more I try, the worse it is. I’m about to finish with this damm life. I hate everything around me. Â I’m feeling more and more alone. The Day I finish with everything I’m sure they’ll just have to remember all this days to realize why I’m doing this. I just want to finish everything
I almost did it today, almost. If it wasn’t for one of my classmates who called me, just seconds before I did it, asking about homework.
I need to talk.. Is there anyone there, feeling like me? I need to talk.
 I wake up everyday and realize that I’m still here. How much  longer do I have to wait. I feel so lonely though there’s a crow around me. I try to do my best,but nothin is enough. I scream but it looks like nobody can hear me screaming. Am I already death? I hate myself, I hate my life, and in the darkeness of my loliness I count the moments for everything to come to an end.
I’m Tired of waiting. I’m tired of sitting around, hearing everybody saying how imperfect I’m. Saying how dissapointed they are.I have the answer to everything […]