I’d gone so long without cutting. Months. Tonight, I get into a car crash, second one in a year, and now everything is apparently falling to shit. Mom is saying I ruined her life. Everything just always has to fuck up. I was doing so well, I was doing fine. Now, here I am slicing my arm and deciding the easiest way to kill myself. I just wanna do it. I’ve been thinking about it for over a year, I need to just do it. Kill myself and it’s over, then everything will go away.
