Shaggy

I was born in Florida and raised there for 11 years. I did live in a broken down school bus for a year and a half. The whole time I was growing up with neurofibromatosis. I fist grew it on my face before I started pre-school. I was always told I was a smart kid. I knew I was different from everyone since day one. Even when it wasn’t that bad I knew it was different.

One day I was eating and bit the inside of my cheek. Blood went out everywhere. My face worsened. I new I was. I was afraid to go out […]

Do you not understand I care about you more than anything? I hope you do. And if you don’t I wish you did. Do you not realize I love you for who you are? I enjoy being close friends with you. I really do! I do… That is even more than I asked for. The least I wanted was us to be friends. Or me to have a friend at all! But I got more. I got a best friend! A very special person to me. You care and love me. It meant so much to find that from someone! You changed the way I […]

No. I can’t handle seeing it. It is making things worse again. Normally when she is sad she will text me. Telling me her situation. And then asked for a hug. Why hasn’t she done that yet?

I am hoping tomorrow she will come talk to me I really need a hug from her too. 🙁

Fuck everything. And life. I would end it. But she told me it would kill her if I did. I can’t imagine what she would do. And I don’t want to.

Seeing her today made me realize I like her a lot more than I thought. Shit…  She is just amazing. I remember going to her house and her telling me. Almost in tears  it seemed. Saying ” I really do like you. To be honest I would date you! But I am a *****. You might not think so. And yes I really do like you. But I just don’t want to fuck your life up.” I didn’t say anything. Because I couldn’t.

The day before I went to her house I got a text from her saying ” Ugh. The guy I was hanging out […]

Last night I asked for help from a friend. I told her my situation. All she said was “Isaiah, please go to the councilors at school. Nobody should treat you like that okay?” I said “I tried but they are always to busy to talk to me She said I was lying. But I wasn’t. Now she wants to take me up there since they will listen to her. Watch. She was getting so mad at me. She said she was always here for me. But then she said I was just asking for attention. I am so confused. This is only a little bit […]

I am different. I look different and everything. There is this girl who just came in the picture. She is the only one who can make me smile. It’s like she doesn’t even try!

Every time I see her. I mean every time. I feel a connection. The way she looks at me now than before we talked. It somewhat seems like she feels it to. How can I tell if she does?

We used to go to the same school. But now we don’t. Since here school does not have homecoming and she really wanted to go to one. I am taking her to mine. She […]

Well a few weeks ago I tried taking my life. I really tried, I even warned people the night before. So when i took the pills. My “friends” left my dying body there and kicked it. Then I got a text from someone I didn’t really talk to say words I never heard before. “Isaiah…I don’t want you to die. I care about you.” It meant SO much. Then while she kept texting me, I tried staying alive so hard. Talking to her. Feeling safe and cared for. The feeling I never had before… I slowly started to fall for her. Then one day these […]

My friend. She started dating this dude. But last week she hated him? I was taking her to homecoming. Still am, but her boyfriend may be upset. She said if he has a problem he can’t be with her. But I want to be with her. This is only a small piece to the puzzle for my reasoning. Help