3Hey I just have to get some things off of my chest… sometimes I just can’t go to sleep not telling anybody how I feel… I know it sounds pathetic but I love my mother altough I stopped calling her that. She is the person who hates me as much as I hate myself. Sometimes I think she is the reason why I feel so bad all the time. When I was younger she was quiet abusive. She also took drugs like I do but she was able to quit or she just doesn’t want to tell me anymore. I hate her but at the […]
I just realized that the only thing that took my sadness away are drugs or alkohol. I guess now for almost 3 years there was barely a day I was completely sober. Now that I am I don’t feel any difference to when I wasn’t taking anything. Well maybe I realized it earlier. I did try to do breaks to not be “high” every day but I couldn’t take it somehow. I guess I’m an addict… And this really shocks me I never expected to get addicted to anything. May sound stupid but that’s how you get addicted you close your eyes and just go […]