Gonna get expelled AGAIN from university. Probably because I don’t see any meaning to put effort into it. Anyways I’m tired of being a burden on society and an embarrassment for my family.
Tried hanging myself couple weeks ago, lost consciousness without experiencing any pain. But I regained consciousness and removed the rope in panic mode. I know why it happened and gonna make sure it doesn’t happen again this time.
Tonight is the night. I just need to power through the discomfort and pain for couple seconds and hopefully I will lose consciousness pretty quick. I don’t want to die per say, but I can’t live the way I live without becoming homeless. Hate every aspect of modern life, meaningless jobs just go get $$$ to survive. I lost my path long ago… So yeah wish me luck.