I’ve lurked here, but I’ve never posted. (Thank you to you all, by the way.) It’s kind of scary. But I’m trying to calm down, and maybe this will help.
I don’t want to die. I just want everything to stop. I can’t control my thoughts. People make it sound easy, but I can’t just ignore them. Suicidal thoughts are on my mind quite often. I feel like they are in a constant battle with my normal thoughts. I’ve only really acted on these thoughts with the intent of dying once spontaneously, nearly two years ago now, and obviously wasn’t successful. Sometimes I’m grateful for that, […]