I dont know when will this end, I have the feeling of emptiness, i dont talk, interact, think, i usually sit infront of the computer and just do nothing (because ive done every thing that could be done on a computer) i hate people, i hate my self, i hate society, even when i do drugs i have bad experiences (the high doesnt make me happy i just think of how bad my life turned to be), i am a 24 year old, i have an architecture degree ( though i hate engineering), and im living in a country where i have to join the army obligatory, […]
First of all I”ll tell u about my parents: when my mother was pregnant with me in her she wanted a girl since I have 2 older brothers, so when I was a child she used to treat me like a girl my hair was long, she used to let me wear dresses…etc I really love her the most in my familly, my older brother has psychological problems (autism, shezophrenia and some other syndromes) his iq is 70 – 80 therefore a lot of schools didn’t accept him, he should have went to a private school for special people like him, but my father insisted […]