When thinking about the various ways I could end my life none of them seem particularly appealing. I think it’s more of a fear of trying and not being successful and knowing you will have to wake up and face all the same thoughts again. I guess it comes down to a choice between my head and my heart. My ego is like go on do it but my in my heart I know I don’t want too. I think so far jumping off a building would probably be the method I would pick. It’s weird talking about this openly and honestly. Not like a […]
When you realise that people you care about are actually against you. They want to know what’s going on in your life but not for the right reasons. Some people like to compete and play games. 29 years of having to endure relationships where people take and play mind games. I literally have no body I can talk to because none of them really wish me well. It won’t matter soon. The more I let go of these things the more I realise there is nothing to fear from being alone. I can feel and act however I like. I just pray that one day […]
To people who just don’t have a clue? When the burning feeling inside starts and you want to claw at anything…the Walls your skin. When every inch of you wants to not be alive anymore. It’s these moments that are the most lonely for me. No matter how much I try to reach out to people or even explain it’s like they hear me but they are not listening. Im a loving and accepting person but no matter how often I extend my hand to people to try feel less lonely nobody wants to know. They never recpicrocate. People in my life would much rather […]