solitarywalker

There once was a three year old girl
Who took baths with her brother
A giggled when her mother popped bubbles
As she watched her children play
While her father lay on a bed
One room away
And drank red wine
And watched his family
And smiled

There once was a seven year old girl
Who took her first shower
And missed baths with her brother
But now he was nine
And they were both too old
And her shower was too long
And her mother got mad
And the girl went to bed early

There once was a nine year old girl
Who learned […]

I haven’t written any poetry in a long time…but no better place than here to post what I wrote today

I dream
You live
We watch from far below
I hear what I want
You see what you know
The dark is closing in
And ignorance is crucial
To no know where I’ve been
And distrust the usual
Sometimes in the light
None of us are happy
Take shelter from the bright
I’ll try to keep on living
Wake up
Look down
Suppressed so hard
In darkness we’ll drown
No way
No way
I wish so hard
To come the new day
I dream
You live

It’s all over. Truthfully. I have who I need, and what I want, and finally the person I used to…really like I think he’ll be happy.

But I cut today. And I cut yesterday. And the day before. And before that.

I’ve taken many sleeping pills. I’ve cut deeper than usual.

When will I be done?

Sorry for leaving, I never realized how much i needed it here. Not really a now more then ever thing, but still. I miss it here…there were people i cared about. I’m sorry for leaving. I don’t know if I’ll be back for long, or what kind of state I’m in. I could complain about something that recently happened…but I just can’t, it’s too petty. But I missed it here.

When i first came here, everyone was just…I don’t know how to describe it

but now it’s just…sad…everyone’s too cheery..