I haven’t written any poetry in a long time…but no better place than here to post what I wrote today
I dream
You live
We watch from far below
I hear what I want
You see what you know
The dark is closing in
And ignorance is crucial
To no know where I’ve been
And distrust the usual
Sometimes in the light
None of us are happy
Take shelter from the bright
I’ll try to keep on living
Wake up
Look down
Suppressed so hard
In darkness we’ll drown
No way
No way
I wish so hard
To come the new day
I dream
You live
In a world of no survivors
Just pain in darkest woods
Surrounded by the fires
Becareful of your life
Never love too deeply
It’ll only cause you strife
When your heart’s ripped out completely
But some of us find hope
In empty halls and winding towers
Built with pain for days
Hours upon hours
Wake up
Look down
Suppressed so hard
In darkness we’ll drown
No way
No way
How hard I’d wish
For a sun and a new day
I may dream but if you call this living
I might just stop this fight
Take back what I’m giving
In all this dark
I just can’t stand
Let me free
Let me live
I’ve done all I can
I gave what I could give
Every time you say
I’ve done something wrong
I simply lose my spark
And my will to get along
I dream
I live
I watch from far below
I hear what I want
I see what I know
Out here in the dark
I think I’m slipping under
It’s time to give it up
From the pain and the thunder
Wake up
Look down
Hurt so much
No wonder I’ve drown
No way
No way
I waited to long
For the sun and I new day
16 comments
Hey missy,
this is a bit gloomy so I guess you haven’t been in the best place? What happened? did you end up going on those meds? Did they work? are you seeing a shrink as well?
Answer my questions dammit.
Meds, off of em. I’m doing a bit better, I don’t get on the site much. Can you help friend greed please?
Hey. I’m new and need some help.
All ears. (or eyes i suppose…)
Thanks for helping him
@solitary, glad you’re doing better and off meds! Well done!
@Greed, welcome… tell us about yourself?
🙁 not good actually. Parents went into denial…so that’s working ou badly. But I don’t think I’d be better off with them. I’d just be better off without friends who give me scalpels
Oh… when you were on meds, were they helping? did you go off because your parents took you off, or did you decide to go off, or the doctor said you should? Who is giving you scalpels? And why?
I’m on meds too. They make me worse actually.
Eh…not really. Greed’s more up to date on medicine though. My mum took me off months ago. We stopped seeing my old shrink, but she gave me panic attacks anyway :/ and one of my friends…because I asked her….but I found an unused boxcutter…sooooooo
So… you’re sort of being a bit passive/agressive about your friend who gave you the razor… you’re saying youre better off without her, but you were the one who asked in the first place… so you can’t really be angry at that friend. Sounds like you’re kinda really confused in yourself… you don’t know if you want people to help you, or if you want to keep cutting… that’s ok, I think we’re all a little confused. You don’t have to make a decision now, but it’s worth starting to think about… how much you control your own destiny….
😀 oh shit. I’m not trying to be passive aggressive. I know that it’s totally my fault, and I love that friend to death. She’s trying to drop out of school, and do drugs ect. And I’m trying to get her to change her mind. I reay do want to stop, but I keep on making stupid deals, for example, I asked a friend for a few razors sharp objects ect. she bought me some a few days later. By then I had made a snap decision to stop cutting. That lasted about twenty seconds after she gave me a scapel (she couldn’t find a men’s removable razor blade)
No, It’s not your fault, it doesn’t mean you’re a bad person or anything, it’s just indicative of your own confusion. I think you are your friend just come from different points of view. She is being totally self destructive, therefore she encourages your self destruction. You, on the other hand, are trying to save her, maybe because you deep down want to be saved? It sounds like you have two different mentalities and so maybe she’s not the best person to be listening to, or giving this ‘cry for help’ (and I think you asking her to buy the razor was a cry for help that backfired… you wanted her to say no and stop you from cutting).
Sounds like your friend is going through a lot and I know you’re trying to help, but sometimes people want to make their own mistakes and theres nothing you can do about it because it’s their life. By all means, be there for her and support her… but if she wants to drop out of school and do durgs, that’s really her choice. Most you can do is tell her what might happen if she does those things… hopefully she can make an informed choice about it…
I just feel like I need to guide her, which is a dick move on my part. She has a mind, she has a life, it’s hers and I shouldn’t intervene so much. But her family life is terrible, her father locks her in the house, her mother can’t help her, her mother doesn’t even understand English. She has a difficult time realizing what’s going on with her daughter. And my other friends don’t really seem to care. They supply her with drugs, try to get her to shop lift (they succeeded) and they beg her for hydrogen peroxide and razors. So I never know when she’s acting on her own accord, or under the influence of all my friends. She’s good at her studies, in the top classes, but struggles in her life. I don’t know exactly what to do besides go along and ask for blades myself. It’s not a helpful way of coping for either of us. But I don’t know what else to do if I’m just going to be shot down by my own friends.
I’m standing in the way of you cutting solitary and that won’t change. Its good that your trying to help her. Was she at the table?
Yeah she’s at the table. 🙁 and the only people who try and help her left. (Alyssa and Sophie)