If you fantasise about your funeral, I understand, I’ve been there before.
If it’s more important in the music playing than who’d attend, we are the same.
With heads to the ground, as I’m lowered down,
There will be a chorus
An overwhelming sound.
So how is everyone feeling right now?
I feel so alone. Even my best friend- the one that was my reason to live- is slowly drifting away. Our friendship has changed so much, and i’ve tried to do everything I can to make things okay, but nothing is working. Even when I tried telling him this, he didn’t understand. I tried to trust him and he let me down.
It feels as if no one notices me. I don’t fit in with anyone. I’m unloved. I’m not cared about. I have nothing to live for.
All I want is a reason to stay alive. I need someone that can make me feel good- someone […]
I hate it. I feel as if no matter what I do, things won’t be good enough. I feel as if I can always do better than what i’m doing in the moment, despite me giving it everything I got.
I also feel my life isn’t good enough. Like I can have a ton of people around me, and I won’t be pleased.
I can have everything I’ve ever desired and still feel as if it’s not good enough.
These thoughts leave me feeling ungrateful and selfish, but I can’t help it. It makes me feel as if i’m not good enough because I just doubt […]
I’m 15. At this age, most people have lots of close friends and go out every weekend and have a shitload of fun.
Then there’s me.
I feel so lonely and I can’t shake this feeling. I have some friends in school, but no one I actually go out with. I used to have three best friends, now I only have one.
My best friend left me. He was the one that said he’d never let me go. I don’t even think he realises how much I need him by my side. I can’t live without him, he was always the one that saved me.
I […]
So it has been a while since i have last posted on here.
How is everyone? Has anyone been in the process of recovering or making an improvement?
“My body’s failing,Â
I think I’ve hit the floor,
I cannot feel anything anymore.
My body’s failing,
I think I’ve hit the floor,
I can’t remember anything anymore.
And I’m gonna miss your face for a long long time.
And I can’t escape this place, it’s in my mind.”
Yesterday I lost my closest friend. He just stopped talking to me, he won’t reply to me, and he usually replies really fast.
I know he hates me, but I don’t understand why.
He happens to be best friends with my worst enemy, and she tweeted indirectly “So glad he has finally seen your true colours”, but the thing is that I haven’t done anything that could make him angry at me.
He really liked me, and I don’t feel the same way about him, and when I told him that, he hated me, but then we sorted it out. He said he cared about me […]
I still hate myself, and i’m still struggling to make it through the day without crying.
At night, I still find myself wanting to die.
But what good would that do? I want my life to get better– not destroyed. Â But in order for my life to get better, I need to make a move. I need to get out more- see the world, and try to see the good in it. Living my life hiding away from everyone won’t do anything good, I need to change that- I can’t hide forever. I need to meet new people. The thing is, how am I supposed to […]
I know I’m only 14, but the thing is that all this stress and anger I have is too much, and I can’t cope with it. I’m only on the first year of my GCSEs, and I still have so much more to go through, but the thing is…
…It’s not going to get easier than this.
When people ask me about my future, I smile and say I’ll go to university, get a home and start a family. But really, I can’t see myself having a future. I’m trying to tell people that I will have a future, when I’m not even planning to have one. […]
He has an idea about what i’m going through, it seems. He says he’s depressed and that he self harms, but he does so many attention-seeking things (for example, talking about his weight). He has lied about some things, that although they aren’t important things, how can he expect me to trust him? He’s hurt because he has trusted me with some things, but really, he just throws around what he has done in the past as if it’s no big deal. I’m not like that, i’m so much more secretive about all of that kind of stuff.
I tell people that I don’t trust anyone. […]
I can’t help but feel bad when I see young children looking so happy without a care in the world.
Just knowing that 10 years later there’s a possibility of them developing an eating disorder, or getting depressed, or going through anything that i’m going through, makes me feel so sad.
This shouldn’t be the world they are growing up in, they all deserve better.
Society nowadays sucks.
So, i’m new here and i’m just going to talk about who I am. I’m 14 years old and I have been depressed for as long as I can remember. Even when I was in primary school I had suicidal thoughts, but I thought that maybe things could get better. But they didn’t.
I nearly became eating disordered, I practically starved myself (apart from when I had lunch and dinner because my parents were around). I started getting those “you aren’t good enough to eat food, just stop” thoughts too.Despite having a lot of people around me, I feel so alone. I do self-harm, but […]