I just need someone to talk to. Just for a little while. Just to sort out my head. Just to get some order back into my thoughts.
Please…
A few months ago I posted a story about my best friend who was close to the edge and how I desperately wanted to stop him doing the wrong thing because he just had so much to live for. Well a lot of time has passed and he is still alive, I actually managed to stop him – but in doing so I put all of myself into what I can only crudely refer to as a mission and I know now that I lost myself. I learnt to think like a suicidal person, seeing the triggers, the pain, the hurt, the desire to end the pain – mostly because […]
First things first here in the UK its exam season.
So my friend had an exam today: Biology and considering he wants to study medicine – well psychology, it was really important for him to do well. I asked him yesterday if he felt prepared for it and he said he “barely knew any of the content” – but he always says that and goes on to get 90% on his papers and so I pushed the comment aside.
After his exam today I asked him how he thought it went and he said “SHIT”. Again its something he always says when he finishes exams and so I began to push […]
My best friend… well to put it quite bluntly they are in the worst place – they are on the edge of the cliff and are about to fall off very soon.
They keep telling me that there is no hope for them, that I should stop trying to help them when there is no possible solution – but that’s just not in my nature. I wouldn’t leave a stranger alone let alone someone who I think of as nothing less than a brother. When you love somebody you cant just walk away, no matter how much they push…
Yesterday he told me that he just […]