My best friend… well to put it quite bluntly they are in the worst place – they are on the edge of the cliff and are about to fall off very soon.
They keep telling me that there is no hope for them, that I should stop trying to help them when there is no possible solution – but that’s just not in my nature. I wouldn’t leave a stranger alone let alone someone who I think of as nothing less than a brother. When you love somebody you cant just walk away, no matter how much they push…
Yesterday he told me that he just kept crying -Â cutting and crying. Its not as if its the first time but crying is tiring enough when it only lasts a minute, so seemingly endlessÂ sobbing every ten minutes is enough to break anyone. The thing is he thinks the crying and his inability to stop it are a sign of his weakness and his general lack of power. But its not true.
I just don’t know what to do anymore, the more I try to help the more I feel myself entering his spiral. I am just not ready to give in and let him go – not without a fight. I know that probably sounds selfish and by god it matches his post on this site. But contrary to what he might thinkÂ I’m not doing it because to let him die will play on my conscience – I mean it will, but its more for the fact that he can become anything he wants and if I can just pull him back from the edge, he might just be able to live long enough to know that.