i dont think i can do it anymore. my depression is so bad it is almost palpable, a crushign weight bearing down on me. I feel like I’m trying to carry and elephant on my shoulders, while trying to make everyone around me think it is a parrot. It hurts physically to move, I don’t want to eat. I’m not tired, but I just want to go to bed.
And nobody cares. At least I dont.
I cant deal with this anymore.
how the hell am i supposed to get ahead and try to get out of this fucking depression if NO ONE WILL FUCKING HELP ME!!!!
I DON’T KNOW WHY I EVEN TRY ASKING FOR HELP ANYMORE, NO ONE EVER ANSWERS WHEN I CALL, CLEARLY NO ONE CARES.
why should i?
I don’t even know what i want any more…do i want to live? kill myself? cut myself? puke? die? maim? run away? get locked up? cry?
Everyone always says “oh it’ll get better” well it’s not. It’s still the same.  Every day I get up and go to a job that I used to love, and have to force myself through the day. then I go home alone, where no one calls me, no one cares, and no one would notice if i didn’t show up. no one would notice at wrok either if not for the fact that someone would have to cover for me, […]
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