Nothing. Do you ever see it? I see it everyday. How empty this world and its pleasures. How fleeting its riches, how barren its comforts; how vanished its securities.
Nothing. Do you ever pursue it? I follow after it everyday. How disappointing when caught, when you remember it’s vapor. How sad it’s reward – more aptly named lost.
Nothing. Do you ever feel it? I feel it everyday. How hardened my heart, how gone my emotions. How the voice of my Beloved has lost its beloved place in my soul.
Nothing. Do you ever become it? I am nothing everyday. How less I am than […]
Recently I’m feeling more and more like I have potential to break out of my desire to kill myself. I think if I can just break some bad habits and create some new, positive ones, I might have a real appreciation for living.
Does anyone have any tips on how to break bad habits, and how to increase self control and discipline? I’ve been trying various things, and some were more effective than others, however ultimately I’ve been unable to permanently stop my bad habits.
Any advice, no matter how insignificant it may seem, would be highly appreciated.
A decent future seems so tangible for once in my […]
I’ve never written poetry. I don’t even know if this counts as poetry, or just sentences that sound a little similar lol.
Tell me what you think.
“While I sank into the darkness of midnight, I forgot what light was.
While I sat in the bitter, relentless cold, I forgot the feeling of warmth.
While I submitted to the silence, I forgot how to sing.
While I suffered from the raging waves, I forgot happiness.
While I stood in the heavy, never-ending rain, I forgot how to smile.
While I soaked among lies and deceit, I forgot what truth was.
While I starved and withered of hunger, I forgot fullness.
While I […]
I see a lot of people going through different things in their lives on this site. Many people say they are feeling things like anxiousness or depression. What made you all come to this site? I assume it must be pretty negative considering it’s called “The Suicide Project”, but I’m just curious to see how similar, or maybe not similar, everyone’s reasons are.
For me, I have a few different reasons for thinking about suicide. One of them is how guilty I feel about what I’ve done to others. The other reason is a general feeling of boredom that I have in life. I feel like […]
The joke in the title aside, I’m serious here. I don’t think I understand what love is. I know a lot of people talk about sexuality and stuff… whatever, that’s exactly not what I mean. (to be honest I’m one of those few people who still think homosexuality is wrong, don’t kill me… please?)
I can’t even say I love my parents, or my siblings. They haven’t wronged me in any way, I’m lucky that I was raised by such caring people, but I don’t think I feel “love” for them. Perhaps- respect? Is that the same as love?
All of this just recently occurred to me. […]
I’ve made a lot of mistakes in my life. I’ve committed crimes that I dare not mention (I don’t feel like having the police at my doors), but just think of the three worst crimes you can think of, and I can assure you I’ve done them. (in case you can’t think of any, here’s a few: murder, rape, drugs).
I know people say things like, “It’s never too late” or “Just because you feel like you’re a burden doesn’t mean others see you that way”. I simply do not think those sayings apply to my life. Can you honestly say that the world wouldn’t be […]