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Eat

by Swallowdie 6/23/2013

written by Swallowdie

I don’t like eating. Seeing food makes me want to throw up. If I eat I don’t for a week. I know it’s bad, but I just can’t help it. It hurts sometimes… But I still put it off. And the worst thing is nobody even notices, and nobody even cares… Then other times I binge, and then I don’t eat again. I don’t know what’s wrong. But my ribs are starting to show, and I don’t know what to do.

Everyone seems to be telling me to Eat. But… I’d rather be hungry. Even if it kills me. Because I wouldn’t mind that at all.

6/23/2013 2 comments

Fall

by Swallowdie 11/30/2012

written by Swallowdie

Sometimes… in life, people fall down… and they don’t really want to get up again. I fell down slowly, didn’t really feel it till I hit the ground, and when I try to raise up from the floor… I can’t find the will… to live anymore. So I let myself go, watch the world go by… nobody knows when I tell the lie… It’s nothing, I’m okay. But I’m going to wake up tomorrow… for everyone’s sake.

And to those people, who managed to get up again, you have no idea how much I applaud you. Thank you, from me personally, for being strong… even if […]

11/30/2012 2 comments

Is suicide selfish?

by Swallowdie 11/2/2012

written by Swallowdie

Surely everybody on this site has asked themselves this question, I did a survey forever ago on if it was or not. A lot of mixed replies. Some of the most surprising people said it was (then denied it later), people I barely converse with had a full blown talk to me about how it’s there life and they can decide if they want to end it. I’ve figured most of the people who said it wasn’t have actually contemplated it before, or still are. That was a bit scary. Then there were those people, who have never considered or been asked the question before. […]

11/2/2012 5 comments

Sand

by Swallowdie 9/28/2012

written by Swallowdie

A long poem I’ve had saved for ages, just wanted to see what you think. Maybe, when I decide what to do with my life, I’ll become a writer. ~ Swallow

Sand – A Story of Nothing

I’ve got my name for a reason, it tells me who I am. At the end of the day, I’m as useful as sand. Truthfully, I’m less though I really try. But for me and my life, it’s access denied. I’m lost, I’m nothing and even less then that. I’ve no chance of being somebody, and that’s why my name’s Sand.

A single drop of water, makes up the seas of […]

9/28/2012 9 comments

Are You Missing Something?

by Swallowdie 9/26/2012

written by Swallowdie

There’s this question I tend to ask, ‘Are you missing something?’ A simple task. It’s really me asking myself, no one else has to know, but either way… I have to go. I told a friend today, she didn’t notice at all, that sort of hurt a bit, so I cut the wall. Nobody notices them do they, until they’re finally gone, and even after we leave… they think what we did was wrong. I know it is, but how else can I let them know, I don’t want to leave… and I don’t want to go…

9/26/2012 4 comments

Everyday, Anyway

by Swallowdie 9/24/2012

written by Swallowdie

I’ve been thinking recently, I could just die right now, it’s the most truthful thing I’ve said in a while. I’ve stopped eating, I’m throwing it all away… there’s starving people out there, why should I eat, when they have to wait… Everyday, I’m breaking apart it’s tearing out every trace of my heart. Do you feel this too? When doubt hits you hard… anyway, where should I start?

9/24/2012 6 comments

The Most Beautiful Thing

by Swallowdie 9/16/2012

written by Swallowdie

Once I was in the car looking out fot he window, and everything seemed to slow down. I saw a flock of three birds, all flying in perfect harmony, contrasting with the trees and the sky. It was the most beautiful thing.

9/16/2012 2 comments

I Dragonfly

by Swallowdie 9/15/2012

written by Swallowdie

When I die I’d like to be a dragonfly and then for once I’ll feel alive. But what if there’s nothing after death, I want to remember my final breath. What if you’re nothing, and everyone forgets, no one will notice… I’m gone again.

9/15/2012 2 comments