It’s been 10 years since I last felt this way. Full of nothing but bullshit and utter hopelessness and mind-numbing, soul-destroying sorrow. I guess it’s my namesake, my legacy.
Being here doesn’t help. It’s always worse here. Here, I am just a worthless, stupid piece of shit. No matter how much I try to be helpful, stay out of the way, keep everyone happy. But I don’t ever succeed, not at anything.
I haven’t cut in atleast 6 or 7 years. Sometimes I still crave that pain so much… Just before the guilt and shame of the scars I already still have sets in. I […]