If I had the same view of ppl/the world like I used to (when I was in my 20s, innocent and hopeful)- I wouldn’t be so damn depressed and hopeless. When you’ve seen what life is really like, it’s hard to have a “positive” outlook on life and pretend everything is good or good things will happen.
I kinda wish I was a happy idiot. Instead, I know too much and seen too much of what this life is really like, and how shitty ppl really are. Yeah yeah, there are still some “good” people left, but there’s not many to begin with.
IDK- I miss the old me- the one that had HOPE, the one that believed in CHANGE, the one that believed in humans, the one that that believed jobs were CAREERS and not the blood-sucking soul-crushing things that they are. I used to GO AFTER things HARD- and I would achieve them, bc I thought there’d be something at the end of the rainbow, that all this effort would pay off.
Instead, I saw bosses and co-workers and companies screw you over, I had “friends” and S/O’s screwing me over or never were there for me. I have nothing and no one to believe in. I have nothing to look forward too. I have nothing I want to strive toward. All my goals and desires have all been crushed over the years.
IDK- I guess I’ve been psychologically crushed since my 20s that life wasn’t what was sold to us. I deeply resent it. I’m Gen X- Young Millennials and Gen Z especially- they know they’re inheriting a shit world, full of debt and little ability to afford a house, a good middle class life, or retire- but my Gen was sold a bunch of LIES. We were sold the lie that if you work hard, it’ll pay off. Gen Z knows better. They know they’re screwed. So there is no unrealistic expectation and no slap of reality when they graduate and see how your workplace steals your soul- they never had much expectation to begin with, bc they know the economic reality they’re in, thanks to the internet- my Gen didn’t have internet so we couldn’t simply look up the truth for ourselves.
It would be better for me, and for everyone here on SP, to believe in positive happy things and to have a positive outlook on life- even if it is delusional and unlikely to happen . Bc otherwise, we wind up depressed af about life. And lethargic about life.
What’s the solution?
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maybe I just love to argue, but I paid a huge price not just getting rid of my idiotic ideals but also my initial apathy with the loss of those ideals. It’s less common now, but it still happens…. I wouldn’t go back. I wouldn’t be who I am, and it’s less that I like who I am, it’s that I’m able to leverage the brand of who I am to get what I need done.
and that’s all it is, end of the day, what needs to get done. I love philosophy, spent a long time trying to perfect it, thinking if I did maybe I’d crack the code. it doesn’t matter so much what I believe. It matters to my head, my heart, but not to them, not to my pocketbook, not to how things are going to go.
I think at least part of the solution is to look at other people, try and figure out what makes them tick, what do they need, and try to get them to figure out what we need. Becoming necessary, that seems to have worked out well for me.