I have literally lost everything – job, friends, house, boyfriend – and it’s all my fault. Living with my dad in the country now with no hope if getting a job. He has terminal cancer and I’m not even strong enough to help him. And I can’t feel anything at all. I can see no point in continuing living. I wish I could just dissolve into the air, but a bad death is coming for me soon, I just don’t know when.
