Can’t sleep. Can’t get out of bed. Can’t stop checking the windows. Can’t stop this feeling that someone’s watching me. Can’t stop thinking about it. And worst of all, I can’t do anything about it.
Well, isn’t this great. Just when my suicidal thoughts start to lessen, i start having homocidal ones. Last night I was looking at my little 5-year-old brother, who I love and adore. And then I started laughing like a freaking maniac. I didn’t know why I did. It just felt so good to laugh. I realised later why I laughed so demonically. It was because I wanted to kill him. I wanted to slit his throat. I don’t want to kill him, or anyone, for that matter now. I don’t know why…it was like I wasn’t even in control of myself. I just don’t […]
Scarier, my hallucinations,
Vivider, my dreams.
Deeper, my cuts,
Deadlier, my thoughts.
I’ve been waiting so long for you.
But I fear I am not good enough
For you to love me too.
I want to tell you a secret
If you promise not to tell.
I hate to spread my pain
But my life’s a living hell.
Yes, I do love you
More than just a friend
But I am so afraid
If I tell you, will it be the end?
I can’t afford to lose you
It’ll be the death of me.
And I can’t hold on forever
Say goodnight
It might be […]