Can’t sleep. Can’t get out of bed. Can’t stop checking the windows. Can’t stop this feeling that someone’s watching me. Can’t stop thinking about it. And worst of all, I can’t do anything about it.
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Yeah..I use to feel like people were trying to kill me. Do yourself a favor and go outside on a sunny day out in the open and stand with your arms out and your eyes closed for 5 minutes. If someone approaches you in that 5 minutes then you can admit your right and people are watching you. If not… Then well… Your just like me and no body really cares about me. lol
Lol, yep. I’m pretty sure nobody really does, but still…it’s kinda creepy when you hallucinate people and crap. haha
Just try not to let your paranoia push real people away. lol
yeah (: its not that hard to tell the difference though. they’re just scary. saw a cat running around this morning. it was kinda cute lol
Awww don’t let it get the better of you. You remind me of a girl I knew at the day program at a mental hospital. She thought people could read her mind.
For some years I thought there was a ghost following me around. I’d see shadows and hear voices when my parents where away. No one believed me. When I moved out nextdoor to my brothers house, everyone started experiencing all kinds of paranormal activity. Being pinned to the bed, stuff being thrown, bad dreams, and even caught it on camera. When I couldn’t ignore it anymore I decided to confront it and it finally left and we haven’t seen it since. Me and my girl still joke about it still doing things around the house, but it’s just us being dumb. lol so pretty much everyone believes me now but still no one talks about it openly. But my mom is proud of me cuz she always knew I was special in this way. I use to spend a lot of time in grave yards talking to spirits, just saying hi. lol mostly one way convo.
xD I remind you of a girl in a mental hospital! Haha I’ll probably get put in 1 of those sometime. Yeah I had this weird experience when I was little. I was about 5 and I was sick so I slept on the couch. I woke up at about 3 am and there were spiders on the walls. There was a little girl’s shadow. she had long pigtails and she kept slowly creeping towards me. I heard all these voices, calling my name and stuff and saying how they were gonna get me. I had another 1 at age 10-ish where these 2 or 3 kids were talking. “Kevin!” “What?” “No! Wait ’til she’s sleeping!” “Oh…okay.” Last night someone said “I hate you.” Scary shit
Well yush o-o you’d be surprised how easily you can get sent to a mental hospital BUT it was a day program so we got to go home after the program ended each day. This was after my first two hospitals though XD ahahaha but hey don’t worry some of the best people ive ever met ive met in mental wards.
haha yeah my dad n stepmom theatened to put me in 1. 2 of my closest friends are schizophrenic and they’re awesome. is the day program where you go for therapy during the day?
Yes group therapy, activity therapy, ect :3 oh yeah people with mental illnesses rock.
Yeah they’re really fun (: what’d you do to get in there?
o-o i was realsed from my second hospital and they decided it would be to my benefit to continue missing school during my senior year while i had a day program. That way they could test if i was going to be able to manage being back inthe real world.
Wow.. I’m sorry. i’ve heard that they’re assholes there
Nah i belonged there. They were nice to me. They respected that i hate human contact and even apologized. The program doctors and directors were nice and talked to me like I was a person not some crazy kid. They really wanted to help me but there are some things i cant let go of or even tell people about. They even let me miss a few days so I could go to my high school graduation rehearsal and graduation. I did home study for my final semester. Doing projects, essays, presentatopns, ect while im and out of hospitals, home for troubled teens, and the day program. Im happy i was able to graduate. It’s my only worthwhile accomplishment in life (:
Oh. i just know that some of ’em do say your crazy and, and don’t feed you. At least that’s what i’ve heard, i’ve never been to 1. I’m glad they were good to you. does it help? i’ve been thinking about going to therapy, but i dont know how 2 talk about it with my parents… and then again, there’s always that fear that if you trust someone, they’ll tear you down.. which really sucks
Those places arent that bad. If you want help you can get help. They do feed you. Now you’re just exaggerating. BUT if you act insane and make scenes and hit people or throw things or start fights. The nurses and guards will restrain you and they will put you to sleep and they will keep you longer. Sort of like prison. If you behave and improve you leave sooner. If you play bad you stay longer. If you bs them and they find out you stay longer. And when my mum found out she cried and shit asking why i would want to die. I had been seeing a high school counselor and she decide it was time to tell my mom. I guess i was getting out of hand. I agreed to it but i wasnt ready to have my mom fall apart. Since then my mother has fallen apart in front of me many times. When she does that she reveales a horrible truth or two. Hm i hated her a lot before. Now. Well i moved thousands of miles away haha. Get help….you cant die without giving it a chance. For the record i still dont share with my mom or any family whatsoever….or many people for that matter… I did talk to my younger brother when he was like 1 or 2 i was about 12 then. I would tell him stuff and cry and hold him and stuff and he’d just stare at me and squeeze my hand, that little punk XD
I wasn’t exaggerating, that’s just what somebody told me. I’ll get help before I try anything too. I couldn’t do it now anyway, I’m a coward. Sorry I know I sound really depressing haha