I think today is going to be my day. I’ve tried holding on but my pain hurts more everyday and the hurt is getting the better of me. to start as a young child I was molested several times by different people one being my uncle. no one ever did anything about it. as a child I wanted my family to comfort me and make me feel loved by them and have them comfort me. instead they put me in front of multiple therapists and psychiatrists and by the time I was ten had been prescribed to at least 11 different kinds of medication. that […]
Well today is that day. I will take my journey from one world to the next. I’ve seen most of the ones I wanted to see before I go and a few more to go. It hurts knowing that it is the last time I will ever see them and they to me, yet they have no idea.. I regret that I was never able to fix myself my mistakes, and better my life.. but I hope the other side will finally bring peace and rest. Goodbye to all may you find peace and happiness for yourselves in your own way as well.
I can’t stop listening to these songs.. they describe my pain my sadness my anger… The story of my end…
Mudvayne – scream with me
Ever feel like dying, Ever feel alone, Ever feel like crying, Lost child in a store, Ever feel life pushing, Shoving you away, Ever feel like breaking down, Funeral in the rain
Feel life slipping away, Stand in the corner and scream with me, A body full of empty, A head thats full of rage, Better belive it, Stand in the closet and scream with me A mind thats like a fire, Driven by the pain, Better believe it
Ever feel like lying, Down […]
I fear that this is the end of me. For so many years before we met I lived a life of misery. I hated myself, hated everything. I used to live day to day like a robot in a trance. I had a shitty childhood. From being abused, to being treated shitty, moving around a lot, sexually molested, and no matter how much effort I put into fixing my life something always had to happen to make it worse. Then I met you. Every girl I have ever met in my entire life had been a waste of my life. The used me, cheated on […]