I feel useless, like everyone thinks I am lazy or an idiot. I want to go to college, I want to pursue a career, I want to grow a tree of life and reap the fruits of reward. But to me that just seems impossible. I have such severe depression and anxiety that I am only happy when I am distracted from the dark lingering thoughts that float around my mind like polluted clouds blocking out the sun. I recently graduated highschool. During highschool I skated by, it was easy, I never studied and still succeeded; however, college was a mere butterfly in a meadow […]
I have so much to say, so much to think about, but I feel like I can’t find a part of humanity that will understand my way of thinking. In this world people care so much about things I find uninteresting. Maybe that is just an example of everyone being different, sure; however, I desperately need an ear like my own to listen to me. I am only eight-teen but my severe life-long depression and anxiety has stayed by my side like a shadow filled with pollution. I wanna die, but that would break a promise. But I wanna die still. That promise is my […]