My Psychologie teacher wants to do it as a class activity… And she wants me to open up and tell my story… because she found out that I had gone through things and stuff. Still I don’t want to do it. I mean there’re people who I just don’t want to find out about me… It’s personal.. not for her to share it.
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I suppose I should be feeling better. Still everything is going wrong. A part of me wants to stop, a part of me just wants to go. How much longer will this fight continue?
Si fuera más bonita quizás alguien me notaria
Si alguien me notara, quizás no estaría tan sola.
Si no estuviera tan sola, quizas no sería suicida.
Si no fuera suicida, quizas lograría amar.
Si lograra amar, quizas le importaría a alguien.
Si le importara a alguien, quizas sería más feliz.
Si fuera más feliz, quizás sería tonta.
Si fuera más tonta, sería como los demás.
Si fuese como los demás, no estaría sola.
Si no estuviese sola, quizás sería más.
Si fuera más, quizás algo bueno pasaría.
Quizas.
Si algo
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