just a few days ago i came very close to killing myself… ive been in some very dark places lately, my boyfriend broke up with me over text message and ive been very broken down and in a lot of pain lately…its very hard fro me and with my depression and suicide problems i had enough going on so one night i just lost it. my best frienf taylor was at my house to talk me out of it. ive had so much going on i just didnt see the point in living anymore…al i wanted to do was die, go to sleep and never […]
as i sit here typing each word that pops into my mind, i feel so friken depressed. i think of my past present and future. my past was horrible my present is worse and my fututre might be hell or i might so something with my self. i havent talked to my father in forever cuz i dont trust him he a crack head and i dont feel safe around him he is just worsesome. i saw him for the first time in 2 years and i started to cry cuz i felt scared and weak. i started cutting myself again. i feel like shit […]
i try. i try to hold on to you. this pain is just to real. there is so much that time cannot erase. my wonds wont seem to heal. you presence is just too much for me to bare. i try to hold onto your hand and let you say everything will be ok. sometimes you are speachless. not knowing what to say. sometimes when your not around i get into a deep depression and i wish you were here to give me a hug and promise you will stay with me forever. as i think about my past i begin to cry. sleepless nights […]
as her mother looks into her eyes
she sees the pain she sees the hurt she knows her daughter needs help but doesnt know wat to do services has threatend to take her child away so now she is scared she wakes up the next morning finds a a trail of pills on the floor then an empy bottle lye next to the last pill as she walks into her daughters bedroom and finds another empty bottle of pills on her lamp platform she tries to wake her daughter as the EMT’s rush thru the house and back to the hospital screams are heard from the […]
just another day
just another pill
just another life
just another girl
hateing her life
hateing the world
grabbing for the knife
ends all the pain