I always keep putting things off. I am so scared of what can happen that I keep things bottled up until they get really bad. I wish I had someone to comfort me and hold me and tell me it will be alright. Sometimes I feel like just running away. This money proble, is eating me alive.
I am still stuck in this terrible rut. I am so scared of everything. I can barely eat anything, all I see is how I let my family down and I hope I do not make them suffer including my father who is about to turn 60. I am scared of school, I am scared of debt collectors, and I really feel that I just messed my life up for good.
I am just so sick of it all. I am in so much debt from college that I do not even know what to do. Unless I can pull a miracle I will have debt collectors hounding me. I really see no light at the end of the tunnel.