Its getting so hard to keep going, I keep on fighting, covering my tracks, hiding, but it is getting so  hard. I am losing my best friend as I am leaving town, and now I just cant figure out what to do. She talks with me every so often, which makes everything worth while, even if its just for however long I get to talk with her,but I always feel guilty for taking up her time which she could use to talk with her bf or do other work, especially since she is so perfect, and because she said if they broke up she would […]
I don’t know what to do, I can’t seem to keep going like this, it has been 10 years in a slow descent into oblivion, it hurts so much now just to wake up, but I can’t do it, it would hurt others, and that would be selfish of me. My best friend A, has a boyfriend, but she is the only person who makes me better, but I cant hurt her, and I am leaving soon by asking her to do things with me because people are judgmental assholes. I think of better and better ways to kill myself, and with more than 30 episodes of […]
Sorry, I am not very creative, nor a good poet, but I wrote this for a friend, but will never send it, but I kind of wanted to so here it is.
If I weren’t so Naive,
I would believe,
that what is there,
isn’t just hot air,
and what I feel
Is actually real.
And I am more,
than just a chore.
But what I know,
is my life will flow,
and I will be gone,
before the next dawn.
Though what I seek,
is solved when you speak,
I cannot allow
what you have to fall,
because you are great.
And I am just more weight.