Those eyes are the most beautiful hue of blue I have ever seen. Eyes associated with a complexion that forces even the moon to dull in shine. Surrounding this perfect entity is bliss. A crude seduction is overwhelming as I feel a confidence rise up within me. We are perfect for each other and everyone knows it. My knees go weak knowing he senses my pull towards him. As he walks over to present his hand, all the eyes in the room are fixed on us. I accept. Gorgeous does no justice to the angelic footsteps gliding me around the room. My cheeks turn red as […]
It has stopped.  The agonizing cries have ceased.  No longer will I see shadows chasing my footsteps.  I have materialized once again to bathe myself in a world of love.  I see smiles and happiness all around me.  I am beyond thrilled to feel a touch or witness a smile guided in my direction.  I am a victim no more.  The sun shines on my face.  I moisten my lips and wait for it’s beauty to bestow it’s essence upon me.
Yet, Â I cannot feel it’s grace. Â It does not come. Â The faces start to blur and laughter no longer blesses my ears with it’s sound.
The dullness […]
Suppressed and forgotten. Â I have forsaken the best part of me, thinking she was the enemy. Â Â Years have passed and everything has become so, unsettling. Â Once again, my thoughts and memories displace me and I stifle to breathe. Â I thought it would last, this convinced happiness of mine. Â I thought I would be safe, safe from myself. Â I purposefully crawl through the trenches to save someone else. Â A person who feels she has no one else to fight for her. Â No one else to love her. Â Broken is no longer a word I can use to describe my everything. Â Dismantled and in pieces, […]
I am bleeding again. Â Waiting for the end I try and fail. Â My love has been taken from me and may never be returned. Â Suicide embraces my mind while I search for an answer to why this has happened to me. Â My tears are not drying and I can feel my soul slipping into the abyss. Â Slowly slipping into the unknown and the peacefulness of silence, I fall. Â I watch myself fall and I think that this cannot be it. Â This cannot be how it happens. Â I try to pray but hear nothing. Â My life is composed of truth and lies, violence and […]