Taking pills, any kind, just seems to fix evverything. Parents screaming at you, take 2. Work or school overload, another two. Max dose it up just enough to stay functional. Appetite suppressants, the great side effect of pills. Skinnier and skinner I imagine….. I’d be beautiful only if I were skinnier. He says I’m perfect but he doesn’t have to stare at my awful body, the ripples of fat every minute of everyday. I’ve gotten through this before, but now im in a relationship, i dont know how much of my bullshit he can handle. I’m doubting him and not letting my walls down. I […]
It feels like I’m living on a roller coaster and I keep getting stuck at the bottom. The past year has been the worst if my life. My parents almost splitting up, my boyfriend attempting suicide, my dad threatening suicide, one of my old friends taking her own life and me being blamed for it. There is no comparison for that type of pain, that agony. I didn’t cause this I had to tell myself just to drag myself out of bed in the morning. People I thought were friends turned their back on me. It hurt. Then another person close to me takes his […]