Told perinatal health services everything I’m dealing with at the moment over a couple of emails. Called up to try to speak to someone multiple times on Friday (two days ago) and never received a call back.
Completely alone, baby’s Dad has forsaken us both for convenience, yet lives in the same HMO (House of Multiple Occupation) as myself. I am so desperate for support and do not have any, from anywhere.
There is a bridge near where I live over 100ft high over a river and every day I fight the urge to jump off it. I don’t think I can wait to complete the pregnancy. If I give birth and then die the baby will likely be handed over to my biological family who abused me horrifically in childhood.
I am considering ending my life at the end of next week once I have sorted out some things.
Baby’s Dad knows I intend to suicide at some point in the near future and is okay with it.