I didnt come on here to be judged. i post the stuff that is on my mind and what i truly feel, from previous comments on other posts i dont say im fat to get attention or say im ugly to get compliments what i say is what i feel, if you dont have anything good to say then just fuck off..
Right now i feel like i have no reason to be here.. My friends are all asleep and i really need some support.. I dont know what keeps setting my off. Every time it happens im alone and am just thinking. i have my razor out i plan on it tonight.. not killing myself, but having some relief. i deserve that at least.. I need someone here with me. who i can cry to , who understand me, who wont say that my scars are ugly or that i shouldn’t have done that, some one who truly understands it and would call them beautiful and […]
Well, i feel really depressed and i don’t know what to do right now. I wanna burn myself or cut or purge. i looked in the mirror and now i cant stand myself. I hate my body i fucking hate it! im so tired of being big im tired of thinking this is how i look, fat, ugly, disgusting, unattractive im just.. fuck.. i don’t know. i just don’t wanna be this weight…
OH *adding on* i left the room for a second and i come back […]
Well, my friend wants me to try shrooms with him and i don’t know if i should or not. im not afraid of being fucked up im afraid of what actions i might act on that are in my head.. whether it be harming myself or finally snapping and going off on some “friends”
im afraid the thoughts in my mind will turn into reality and then ill be trapped in my own helish […]
a little bit about me.. Well im 16, my life includes smoking pot, listening to music, video games, and partying. I’m not a bad person i really try to be a good person considering how i get treated. I’m bisexual and proud. my music includes reggae, escape the fate, BMTH, BVB, Tech nine *really all of strange music*, ICP, and mostly all music. I am a Juggalette. I’v been depressed since i was about 10 and started cutting around 11, my sister pasted away when i was 13. I have chronic migraines so it makes it hard for me to do a lot of things. […]
One day i sat in my room and had my music up, i thought i had locked my door and shut it, but it wasnt shut all the way… Well as i had a knife to my neck and my suicide note on my chest, my .. friend David comes in he coaches the knife away from me and when i dropped it i fell into his arms and cried and couldnt stop.. We talked about why i was trying to do it, many reasons.
Till this day, i owe him my life.. Thank you..<3
I write poems everyday
Poem by Poem
Day by day
To seal my endless pain
Scars are everywhere
All they do is stare
Never once noticing me
Falling apart silently
XxOutCastxX
i see nothing at all, no happines
When i tried to commit suicide i was serious about it. I locked my door turned my music on loud and ignored the knocks. Well i laid down my tools of trade, a bottle of vodka, to hide my shame, a razor at the wrist nothing would be missed. I.. I took a drink then grabbed my razor as i sat over a towel and just cut my thighs to hell i could barely walk after.. I called […]