Does anyone feel like that people who say that “talent has nothing to do with success if you keep practicing” or “don’t give up your dream! :3” or something to that effect are only people who have been so far successful therefore wouldn’t know what the fuck they are talking about? The notion that everything can be that easy if you have the passion for it or the drive and you work diligently? ANYONE can have those things! but is what gives other people the edge is something genetic? sure someone can study techniques and maybe learn to use a new tool. but guess what?! someone […]
The Earth and its wonders is really a thing to behold and we are blight upon it. Really everything would be better off if we all suddenly dropped dead. Man, I hate humanity. I hate the way we think and act and just fuck up everything to get ahead in life. We cant even get along amongst ourselves especially when others think even just slightly differently with you. SERIOUSLY. FUCK THIS SPECIES! I mean I think its a simple thing to be nice and the concepts of morality and kindness is almost the same throughout the world BUT WE JUST CHOOSE TO BE ASSHOLES. What […]
If somehow you found yourself already having resolve and reason to kill yourself how would you do it?
For me (and I know its “selfish” and wrong) it would be suicide by cops because even though I think of myself as a waste of space I think just killing myself would not accomplish much on my agenda; might as well take the people I hate with me right? I mean if I just up and killed myself through hanging or jumping or whatever …who would care? no one. might as well release what has been pent up inside me for all my life in my last […]
Kinda pathetic having this realization from an anime of all things but it actually spoke to me better than most people can. Anyways its this show called Watamote and it just had its final episode. Its about social anxiety ,loneliness, generally just things that I could relate these past few years (frustration from trying to make friends, no love life, no sense of fulfillment) which is the reason I started watching it and basically it ended on the note that after all she did nothing has changed and shes still lonely but the thing is she just laughs it off and says “it doesnt matter […]
Okay so I think my mood has improved from before or maybe Its just the first time Im posting while Im not feeling down. Its just that I now when I can think clearly I still cant think of  what I want or what the point of doing anything is… There just isnt any other than trying not to become a burden to my folks anymore(I might be graduating college this year assuming I dont fuck up).They’re the only thing that matter to me. Beyond that I dont think there would be anything left tying me to this world.  I just dont find anything truly […]
I should have just listened to my dad when he told me to just go take up business . Im not cut out for this shit… If anyone sees this and is thinking up on going to art school… if you dont have talent right now (im talkin about “still scribbling anime in the back of notebooks” kind of no talent) DONT FUCKING GO FOR IT. sure you learn things, maybe a lot of things but it wont amount to anything and if your real lucky you wont even get to graduate on time giving yourself an extra year or two of learning nothing. but […]
been a while since Iv’e posted its probably because I have been holding it in so long…. still no luck…still want to just die….before I sleep its my prayer to just not wake up at all…I don’t see a point in continuing this. People hate me,but not as much as I hate myself and its even worse now i’m unable to share this with anyone anymore. this is probably the only place I could …with strangers who care even less about me. I never asked for this life but why is it i’m not allowed to end it? whatever…why is that people or cruel but when you express how […]
but I cant people will tell you your insane
They are the crazy ones… only crazy people can live on this planet and prosper
I…HATE….OTHER PEOPLE
they talk and talk and talk about the most absolutely fucking retarded things and yet I listen
and when I speak they are deaf…. FUCKING deaf. and I cant take it anymore
I wish they would just outright tell me what they find SO wrong about me… i try to be “normal” act cool and stuff …friendly even. yet they are scared I can sense their fear ….fear and pity….pity and malice.
maybe I am insane (would an insane person know […]
What the hell is wrong with me? Am I an unlikable person? *sigh* I try you know I try to be friendly but why is it that in whatever I do Im just ignored. Im currently in art school and I try. try hard and I am decent at what I do yet I get no attention in any thing its like Im invisible and it just makes me hate everyone at school.school I HATE that too I enjoy the learning yes BUT I HATE THE PEOPLE THERE …I just hate people in general ? I didnt use to be like this I wasnt so […]