i just wish i could fucking comprehend at least a LITTLE how there are people out there who don’t think about ending their lives
nobody really wants to help you, nobody really cares
the only reason im still here is bc i know how much of an inconfuckingvenience id be to my entire family (financial, emotional, etc) if i were to kill myself
and the best thing is you probably wouldnt even know that i died you’d just probably try to contact me and figure im an asshole who moved on
I hate this, I hate being alone and waking up and knowing this person doesn’t want me and that I’m such a fuckup and I can’t talk to anyone about how much I just want to be dead without them calling 911 on me, no one to watch over me it’s just taking so much for me right now just to not end it all because nobody fucking cares they all just want to ruin my future and put me in a hospital, they don’t make you better they just make you numb. I have to suppress all my fucking feelings so I don’t fucking break down and kill myself or get myself killed
I wish I was worth more so I didn’t have to feel any of this
All I am doing is praying that I don’t fuck up my next relationship. I’m only two weeks shy of 21 but my past relationships have made me exhausted. I’m starting to not believe in love anymore. I want to get married and have children with the right person but I don’t know how to stop investing in the wrong people
you wanted more attention from me?
now i’ll give you the silent treatment and make you believe you did something wrong
Finally considering therapy as an option because talking about my problems just ruins friendships and relationships clearly
back to skipping meals but not on purpose
back to five hours of sleep and dreaming of the worst case scenario
just watching them ignore me and
watching my body shake and sweat even more
will i ever meet anyone who won’t get sick of me
Does anyone else feel like no matter what they do they can’t do anything right? That they’re tired of inconveniencing everyone around them and making life so much harder? I feel so unwanted. I don’t even want to die. I just want to run away and live by myself. That way no one will be burdened by my passing.