Damn… I’m a little depressed, but don’t want to fight it. Because even when I am not depressed I am still the same person who is doing nothing.. I hate myself for being myself. I know I haven’t reached my lowest point yet, and I am very afraid that one day that day will come and everyone else will discover how worthless I am. I am a lazy fearful procastinator, and I am not and don’t think I’ll do something about it, because I know that when I try somewhere down the road I will eventually quit when the going gets though.
I found myself in a place where I don’t have any point to live.. I am alone, no friends, nothing to do, no skills.. I don’t see myself being happy one day.. And I know It’s all my fault. I am just existing right now, and I know someday I will take my life away.,,
To introduce myself I am 19 years old going 20 this year, but I feel like my 10 year old cousin can do a lot of things better than me because he is not uncomfortable of human interaction. Through constantly being afraid of people and events when I was a kid. I became very weak and inexperienced. I am also very lazy that I can’t even write here all what i have to say about me. I just sit all day at my computer, wasting my talents away.. Procrastinating…
I don’t want life, I don’t want people.. I just want nothingness.. I don’t even like […]