In my mind’s eye
Exists a place of peace
Where I no longer fail
Still & quiet
My ethos in riot
In my peripheral vision
Untamed incisions on my wrists
Testify
The nature of my intent
I deserved to die
Written by me March 20.2012
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I’ve read quite a few stories on here and found it helpful to put my own issues into perspective. It hurts to read how many people are suffering. I wish there was something I could do to help…but I can barely help myself. Every setback or failure makes me feel like I’m ready to let go…and every success or good thing makes me feel undeserving and on the verge of failure. It’s so difficult to see that things do get better. Especially when you’ve been alone for such a very long time and you know you’re not typical or normal or not sure you’re worth […]