When I attempted suicide in 2012 I spoke with a shrink before I left to an institution. Do you know what he said? He said what I do to myself would effect not only me but my loved ones as well.The reason why I thought of suicide was because I over think what others think of me. Doesn’t that suck that even before we end our lives were suppose to still care for everyone else. What do you think?
I dated a girl in secret during freshman year I remember she would look so sad and hurt when I would ignore her. After school she would sleep over my house and cuddle and hold me. We had the sweetest relationship I’ve ever seen or experienced. She left me though she was tired of me feeling embaressed. I damaged her self asteem without knowing. I was never embarrassed of her I was just scared of what others would say of her and me. My history of relationships weren’t the best. I want her now. I need her now. I miss her soft lips. The way […]
I always think about the way I will die. when I was younger I would often imagine it would be fast and in my sleep. Now that I’ve grown older I imagine the way the blood will keep coming out on the sides of my hips. It would hurt but that would be the only solution. I would sit there and quietly sob while the last of the color drains from my face. While I die I will remember the boys who hurt me mentally and physically who kept touching when I said enough. I always think I can get better and my friends are […]