I dated a girl in secret during freshman year I remember she would look so sad and hurt when I would ignore her. After school she would sleep over my house and cuddle and hold me. We had the sweetest relationship I’ve ever seen or experienced. She left me though she was tired of me feeling embaressed. I damaged her self asteem without knowing. I was never embarrassed of her I was just scared of what others would say of her and me. My history of relationships weren’t the best. I want her now. I need her now. I miss her soft lips. The way she would tippy toe to reach my lips. The butterfly’s I would receive when she would kiss my neck and collarbones. I see her now with no one sad and moody. I want to go and grab her and hug her so close to me. I want to stroke my hands threw her hair. The way I would when she wouldn’t let me sleep at night. I miss her. My notebooks are full of sketches and past conversations I wrote down of us. I run my fingers over the date and try to remember. She despises me now. And I have no clue how to tell her i would run threw fire for her to even make some sort of contact with me. I miss you N.
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Maybe if you could find a way to let her know this that dispise would disipate a little? worst you could do is not doing anything, and the worst that could happen is that she will still despise you… and you’d be at the same point you are know but at least you’d know that you tried (but i suck at relationships so take my advice with a grain of salt haha)
I believe there is a detail you are leaving out, and you know what it is, and why she feels embarrassed.
But, how to handle it….
If its meant to be, it will be.
You have nothing to lose, try her again, see if it accomplishes anything.
Maybe it wasn’t meant to be.
One day, maybe five or less years from now you’ll look back on this or situations like this, or anything really and realize you don’t care what people think anymore. When you’re out of the dynamic you’re currently in, maybe high school I’m guessing? Everything will change dramatically when you leave, and you won’t care and it’s the best feeling ever.
from your story, she really likes you and maybe even loves you. People might say things for a little, but what will it really effect? they’re just words, and frankly those people won’t be constantly thinking about your life and how you’re dating someone (unless they’re obsessed with you which hopefully they aren’t)
from experience, I’ve lost a lot of people I love; so when the opportunity comes to be with someone you really miss and maybe love as well who loves you back, please be with them..its just really important you know..? in the end you’ll do what you want though
I’ve ordered people out of my life and I’ve simply let them go, and sometimes I wonder…had I reached out and tried to come to an understanding that would make us both happy, would things be different? Would I have richer, more fulfilling relationships now?
The worst she can do is say no. Maybe ask her out for a walk or for a soda or something, and try to talk things over and apologize. You never know what might happen if you try…you don’t want that to become, “I wonder what would have happen if I only tried,” knowing that now it’s too late.