I would love to fade.

Ignoring WifeIsGone’s comment that is highly irrational anyways for most people, although I suppose it could help if it’s within your power, can I give you my solution?

I think that you should stop even trying to be friends with people that don’t understand you, and don’t try to understand you. And on top of that, go behind your back and make fun of you. Find people that feel the way you do, and that have had the same kinds of experiences. You are in high school right? What about that girl/boy that everyone makes fun of because they’re “a whore”, or they have no friends? They’re just like you. They need people that will be there for them. They hurt too, they feel like there’s only one way out. Odds are, there’s at least a couple kids that sit alone at lunch because of these reasons, right? They were certainly there in my high school, and I regret not talking to them now. They’re generally good people. Often better than the people you once called friends.
I’m just saying, people are out there that will gladly be your friend if you let them. People like you and me.

And there’s people to talk to as well, besides just people at school, or people you know in real life, or those suicide hotlines that hardly ever work really. They’re out there. I mean, look at me. I’d gladly talk to you if you’d like, through whatever form. Facebook, skype, whatever you have, if you want to talk, you can ask me and I’ll add you since I don’t think this website has its own private messaging system, for understandable reasons. So, if you want to talk to me specifically, you can do that. Or just go out and find someone in person. Or both, is a better idea. And remember that things DO get better, even if it doesn’t seem like it, and even if it sounds super cliche.