Today I lost all that cared for me and no one feels the. Pain I feel I. Beg each day for my life to end this pain but I still wish every hr it was my last day on this planet this must be as god wishes to punish me for all my bad deeds. I wish my life would end asap.
Wahunter2008
Wahunter2008
I'm a 48 yr wm with four step children ,I have two children from this marriage. I have been working 50 to 70 hrs aweek to help make ends meet, My wife works a graveyard shift and I'm over the road truck driver. The stress and pain over the pass seven years has gotten extremely hard to deal with. I really trying to deal with the pain and have had three axienty attacks one was when , I was driving. I repeatly everyday pray for the pain to go away, but it seems to get worst.
Today, as I talked to my wife how to save our marriage, I poured out my deepest thoughts to her, as she listened with little or no compassion . My heart just cracked in a millon parts and the small light I did see at the end of the tunnel was destroyed. All the thoughts of ending my life came running back faster than. Ever.