god made people like me so he coud have some thing to play with
i feel like the sky is about to fall
i hope i can get a rele job that isunt with my dad or on boats i whant to do pub gigs folow the pofrming arts do some thing so i can just pay the bills but thats not going to happun is it i whant to have a famaly do a beter job than my dad and mum i whant to fall in love but thats not going to happun love killd me long long time ago now my deth hornts my dreems it such a god day why do i feel like this all iv […]
thwak here that thas life punching you in the face
“shut the fuck up”
thwak there it gos agen
“i dont know why i lison to you”
you a pece of shit yu know that right
“shut up shut up shut up”
i know you can here me
“if i diyd know one woud care woud thay even if i did it right in front of them”
yer pritey much
“i wasunt talking to you”
yes you were
“thats it”
bang
the blood spredsin a pool on the floor flowing from the boy with a hole in his belley gasping for air slowly as the blood gerguls up from his moth he gos still flying he dosunt here […]
just makeing shure that im still alive xxxxxx
im haveing a night mare
and know one cares cos evrey ones sick of me
but not just sick of me but detesting me
im in a night mare
of twisting fire and flame
with a petey self hatetrid as a focol pont
with the monsters as my frends
who when my back is ternd
snivel in grops about the ponts of my life
evrey step i take is like the world moves beneth me
its got me by the balls its hiting my head agenst the wall relentlessly never giving in just…..
just what just nothing thats what it is just good night forever and let me sleep
but if […]
hello
im going to do this evrey day so i know im still alive and to vent all the shit so i dont do this on fb i mostly wight potry on here and been doing the rants on fb but i think i need to stop doing that cos it upsets people and i dont whant to do that so a bit bout me (sorry if i bore you) i have a multude of problems that for some reson have been put on my sholders with the normal 16 year old problems and wile do the pre jone cors for the paras wich i have […]
i fownd a sharpp nife and the pane full pleshure of it sinking in the blood mixsing with the ters and i can here my mum laughing her head off my frends slip away im going to diy some day so it mackes no difrens dos it ?
i know one thing ill never forgiv my mum and dad for abanding me on this world im still convinst im ther exprment see how far we can push this one will lv had it……..
head cupt in hands fingers in hear god leving me frend leving me hope leving me kife infront of me
sing me to sleep dont wake me up im all readey gon put on my favret record let me take my last pills im dark and cold
so leve me alon let me go not here aney more dont knoc on my door in the morning cos i whont get up dont bother smeling the blood
2 frends dead the rest runing not geting beter alone so glad to go got no hope my love left got so go i dont need this i a mess im a […]
its stupid my old foks are out i think i held i knife in my hand for harf the day befor i realisd what i was doing im pethetic im sorry i even wast your time im losing the game in facet i think i lost a long time ago :/ i know you cant be here with me but some times i think you are nd i start to talk to you but then i realis im on my own am i going crazey im sorry im like this i cant help being help less am i atenchion seeking i dont know am i […]
cut bad on wist i didunt meen it shud i let go no iv got her she needs me HELP ME IV OUT PRESHURE ON IT IV CALLD THE MEDICS BUT THER 2 HOURES AWAY WHAT DO I DO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HELP
leve me alone i dont like this i whant out of that billding i whant to go home
a fleeting glimps of what i youst to be of the boy runing torw my haed in a feld
were the red and blue flowers grow were the grass grows tall and thick were the boy who at age 9 pikt up a gutat and nevet let go he still hasut but the words of his songs talk of deth ad losst love with no way out with somthing to shout about WITH the will to go on
a fleeting glimps of what i was
a chilld […]
some thing wondafull and horabull has happnd to me
i fell in love with a girl and you shuod be smilles all rawnd but love has hert me so meney times i dont whant that to happun agen but its to late she fownd out from a frend never trust girls frend with aney thing so wating for the axe to fall here we go i know this is petey and its 1 of 100s of problemes but i just whant to say 2 things
1 we can love what ever other people say
2 love has slapt me in the face so meney times im not shure […]
1000 feet 900 feet going down dont know what to do losing controle no that happund along time ago 500 feet my life is like this all day evrey day i whant to hane on but its harder and harder to do down down down bang crunch the sond of shering metel and bolts brake berst bons braking blood floowing its so hard if i gust had a bath and sleept rest finly all the wate on me gon for good floting…………..
im not going going but im leving my life behind for a copul days weeks mothe 1 year at the most ill probly find the strenth to go on with out the suffring or ill find the strenth to pull the trigger im not saying i will and if i am going to ill do it after i get back like a week after just to say goodbye n shit but yer im not saying im going to do it now but im off on a jorney o self help ill be on the mores on the streets at home to get food n shit […]
why do i think the way i think why do i whant to diy i was taking to soem people today thay were so happy why cant i belike that it just gets me so deprest the cuts on my arms tell that stroey im sp alone so and i know people have said this befor but im so lost in my own life i dont knoe who i am know more its like im falling but people look t me and see me flying im crying all thay see is a happy person not me me im so confusd im lost
i dont think aney more
im just lifes hore
the shit you wipe off your shou
this is cos of you
life is like trying to pers your ear with a darning needel
im just week and febel
my life IS a razor blade
all i feel is beeing afrade
cos that last look did keep me out of trubul
i feel like im in a war were the rane flods and pors
were the blood hits the grawnd
and my body spireld down
i feel the bulit in my brane
and tomorw never came
my life warpt in pane
no one to love
no one ever came
no one cared
and fals promisis were made
do we even know
why it ranes or snows
people are just pisst with me
no one fucking cares for me
tonight im going to think of tey
to show that at lest i care for you
ill still be here for you
even now im dead
for i have lost it all
so ill gve it all to you
i care if you dont
i love if you whont
i WILL SACRFICE IF YOU ARE AFRADE
i […]
i was talking to a frend i told her about my pane and how i whantid to go shes been helping me with this for a bit now but today she said if i reley coudent stand the loneyness and hert aney more i she’d let me go what dos that meen dos she whant me to go has she had anuf of my ranting and crying she was the only one who lisind to my trubuls and she was the only one who cared for me now she says this ? i dont know what to do and people wont care if im gon and it […]
more than ones
iv fell at the mile
twice agen i swam the see
and sunk in to the deep
more than ones iv climd the tall tree of life to see if i can breeth and evrey time i was holled back by hands that wish to keep me
i tern heads on the street not because of me but of what i have becom the slict up drugd up boy who criys for help and never heres a word of it all we have is hope that the key is nere biy
im in my cell thinking i can see the gint of the key
all shiney in the dark […]
im crying now and its too much im not going to macke this long so
jacqueline ill see you there ples dont do aney thing stupid if you are still alive and i love you if not ill see you ther im comeing
and to you lot who i caal my frend good biy you cunts you made my life hell i hate you
to you my frends i love you
so i cut agen
so the blood spild
so sorry for the red stanes on the bed
so sorry for brane for the lack of the red stuff the you live on
so sorry for the day
for all the decay
for all the pane
i whant it to stop but it whont
ther seems to be a lump in my trote
iv given in on the doctors notes
for the weekly perscripshion
for the stuff i live on
and the illegul dope
so sorry bout me geting bulled
so sorry for the harasmant and pane
im SORRY! for the wong ansers
im SORRY! for my mined is els were
IM SORRY FOR I CAN NOT LAUGH ANEY MORE NOT EVEN ON LIFES […]