confushion

why do i think the way i think why do i whant to diy i was taking to soem people today thay were so happy why cant i belike that it just gets me so deprest the cuts on my arms tell that stroey im sp alone so and i know people have said this befor but im so lost in my own life i dont knoe who i am know more its like im falling but people look t me and see me flying im crying all thay see is a happy person not me me im so confusd im lost