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With Love

I wished I had missed out.

by With Love 7/16/2022

written by With Love

So, I’m trying to not want to die enough to be fun to hang out with tonight, right? And I’m watching videos of suicide survivors trying to find a reason not to kill myself. They start talking about all the things they would have missed out on- their kids, their music, their dog, whatever.

You know what I would have missed out on if I had succeeded in killing myself at 16?

My rape.

It speaks for itself, doesn’t it?

Anyways. I had to get that out of me. Let’s see if I can shut my brain up and not cry long enough to make my friends happy. Hope […]

7/16/2022 2 comments

Some dumb reasons to live.

by With Love 7/7/2022

written by With Love

It helps me when I’m suicidal to list little dumb things that make me last an extra 10 minutes. Try making your own list. Make it personal and stupid and something no one else would find inspirational. I’ll include mine as an example

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You haven’t been on a 19th century sail ship before. Or pooped in a golden toilet. Seen that one celebrity in real life before. Or that one famous painting. Or heard your favorite band live. What’s that one thing really like, in real life? What does frankensense smell like? What is it like to ride a Jetski? There are so many things you don’t know […]

7/7/2022 5 comments

The Reason

by With Love 6/29/2022

written by With Love

Here’s something funny. Maybe you can get some humor from it. This is a happy suicide note! As I write this, I’m not about to kill myself. I’ll be laughing with my friends online in a few minutes. Life will go on for a little while longer now. So, if you’re one of the strangers reading this when I first publish it, don’t feel sad for me. In fact, just keep assuming that the time never came. After you read it, just watch some cat videos and move on.

Anyways. Hi!

It’s strange, I know. I do want to explain a little. When it is actually time […]

6/29/2022 5 comments