Was anyone else HOPING the world would end in Dec? I guess disappointment abounds. I’ve been struggling with depression and suicidal thoughts for over twenty years now without ever seeking professional help. I try to shun the outside world as much as possible because I thought that it would be easier than the loss and pain that come from relationships with people, but I’m not sure that lonliness is something that’s any easier to live with. I think about killing myself every day, but it’s been 13 years since my second failed attempt. Part of me still wants to believe that there’s a reason I’m […]
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wrpj7569
I'm 37 yrs old, never been married and have 1 daughter. I come from a family of half-crazy hillbillys, and a marriage that barely lasted a year. I was raised by my grandparents who were good people, even if their loveless relationship made it hard for them to show affection. I was molested by a teenage neighbor boy for almost two years when I was about six, so I was kind of screwed up for awhile. I guess you could say I was confused about my sexuality, but I eventually realized that it was girls I was really interested in. Unfortunately they've rarely been interested in me. I've had three serious relationships, all of them ending disasterously, and I've been single and celebate for going on eight years. Depression coupled with social anxiety make it kind of difficult to meet anyone. I've had dozens of jobs doing everything from washing dishes to building structural beams, but I've been out of work for almost as long as I've been single because I'm getting old before my time. With things like herniated disks in my back and neck, gout in my knees and feet, and osteoarthritis, I'm sure girls would be lining up to go out with the guy trying to get disability, and will probably be in w wheelchair in another twenty years. What am I going to do, marry a nurse?