I.cant.breathe!

When I was younger,
I thought
the world would spare my heart.
But as i got older
I found,
it would only tear it apart
I didn’t expect such evil.
For i’d only seen the good.
I didn’t think it’d break me.
no little girl should.
But then the stones started flying.
and the sticks were suddenly sharp.
and the little happy girl inside.
she fell into the dark.

Bye bye innocence.
sorry to see you go.
hello malevolence.
i am at an all time low.
infinite sorrow.
no hope for tomorrow.
you took my heart
and you tore it apart.
my sadness magnified.

i think the one person that was keeping me alive. Is dead.

leave me the fuck alone. and get out of my head. I hate you.

watching through windows
that people call eyes,
sit and stare blankly
as the world starts it’s demise
it puts people of hate upon it’s crust.
it watches and waits as they hunger and lust.
they lust for my blood,
they lust for my soul,
they seek to take both,
and leave a big hole.
taking my love,
taking my life,
taking my very will to survive.
I listen to people
plot their revenge.
Hear them plan out a dastardly plan,
“we’ll tear off her limbs
one
by
one
start with her toes and then to her thumb”
they plot their murder,
make it just right.

I’m stressed. I’m crying. I’m a fucking loser like always. damnit. now why did haliey have to come into my life and make me fall in love. and why did alex have to come in and make me love him too. and then why did hayliey have to leave. and then why does alex have to leave. WHY DOES EVERYONE HAVE TO LEAVE??? is it amusing to see me cry. it prolly is. damnit. I’m just a stupid emo who likes girls and guys and has a strange fear of men in bunny suits (don’t ask) who thinks of dying like it’s a hobby, who […]

years gone by,
way too fast.
Blur before my eyes,
I need to rest.
I cannot stand,
I cannot breathe.
I need a hand,
someone to help me.
Days pass fast,
too fast to blink.
I can’t take this,
can’t hold on,
it feels like ice,
set out in the sun.
my life

to fast for me.

I need to rest.
preferably.
eternally.
forever.
if you know what I mean.
That, is the type of
deep sleep,
I need…
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I am Jacqueline, most call me jackie, but I prefer my full name because it’s beautiful to me. I am a poet, i write about whatever I feel, some poems are from my point of view some are from anothers. I’m thirteen, I live in the u.s. in illinois in a city part of the “heart of illinois” as they call it. But this city certainly doesn’t have a heart. Our city is so messed up, we have more people getting murdered in a day than there are scars on my arm and ankle, and I have more than just a few scars. This city […]

She felt the weight of the world.
Put upon her shoulders.
The pain, the sorrow.
like boulders.

She cried.
She pleaded.
But alas,
She was defeated.
this fragile being
once so beautiful.
was broken.

And the people she was associated with
the ones she called her friends.
left her like a hurricane.
swept off by the wind.
i guess they were just fakes.
guess it was pretend.

And then one day this shattered girl
finally gave in
she stopped this life charade
and surcomed to darkness,
and now this pure white dreamer,
is hollow and heartless,

Her only escape is her poetry,
so she writes
and lusts to be […]

just cut on my ankle…deep. it’s bleeding, a lot, too much, now i’m scared.