im tired of being tired im exhausted at this point il never be perfect or beautiful il always feel like an inconvenience and i no im stronger than this but right now i dont have the energy to fight this dark negativity
its snowing here…
and its snowing in my head i can no longer stand it i wnt kill myself because i cant…
its painful my mum threatens to put me into care just because she cnt deal with being a mother..
even when i dnt shout she doesnt listen..
a normal parent takes you away from your siblings and calmly talks to you..
but no she shoutes abuse and swears and emotionally abuses my heart and soul..
im scarred ..as for my sisters….ones my step sister i thought we wud get along and we do but she doesnt care no matter how much i stand up for her she never ever […]
my name is amie…and truth be told im alone
i want help no one can help me
people say stuff on facebook
i love all that i meet they obviously dnt realise and call ugly and annoying and attention seeking im just trying to fit in
im begging so hard..becuz im all alone being drove to the edge…
WHY WHY WHY
why try to help everyone? It takes my mind off things i feel better to a extent,
though i noticed when im the one feeling alone the most…..out of all my ‘friends’
there is not a single one who is willing or i feel can help me ..
NOT ONE!
I just want one of them to ask me if im okay instead of being selfish,
i ask them if they r okay ..they tell me there problems i try my utmost best to help..but all is in vain because
i cannot solve the world, i cant perform miracles if i could i would…but i can’t
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my family recently found […]
Friends..?
Family..?
can we really be sure that we are not alone?
can we be resured…i dont think so…
friends.. don’t want to listen to the depressing fact that i am alone with no hope of living
they try to cheer me up as if it is that easy
i.am.tired
i hate my family everyone holds on to their every word..SHE said,” oh i would never hit my children” over the phone
………..LIAR…….
how dare you i am repulsed by the fact that you dare to say such words with me meters away…its sickening
……………..so i tell you now……….i am TIRED….DO THEY THINK I LIKE FEELING THIS WAY…..they didnt even look me in the eye […]
we try to talk to people about our problems..
but they make it hard….
as if they don’t really care…. we feel we can trust them and tell them everything yet they don’t want to know wants you tell them..
like its not their problem….
they don’t understand how hard it was to tell them…
we hide behind a mask..that nobody will ever see us take off….
everyone assumes you are forcing your feelings onto others but its not like that….its not~
why does no one understand the way i am feeling~
or is it that they dont want to try and understand…?
In a dream i remember myself dressed in white and as the frozen water began to slowly rise up my body i cryed one last single tear and it runs down my face while thinking i am free~ I take my last breath but all is in vain as i wake up crying because it was just a dream~
why where we born to be unhappy is it some kind of punishment~
Or am i the punishment itself~ being a burden to my family and my friends~
life isn’t suppose to …be this hard…