I broke my fast. I feel terrible yet oh so good. Terrible because ana is going to be mad and I’ll never be as I want to in time but I feel good because I feel satisfied and accomplished that I’m fighting against this *****. But for now, I’ll keep trudging on, I’m going to start my fast again. It only lasted 14 hours, but this time, I’m aiming longer…. much longer. I will do this. I believe.
I WILL make it to the END.
I WILL do WHATEVER it takes to be “THE ONE”
I WILL let ana take over.
I WILL reach my GOAL
I WILL do it, I PROMISE
Goodbye fat,
Hello skinny.
A.B.C.D. here I come! =)
“Eat” says my body
“You’re fat, why would you wanna eat?!” says Ana
“I’m only doing this to support my mom” says my brain
“Go on and walk faster, you’re too fat” says Ana
“I don’t need to do this, I’m perfectly fine” says my heart
“Look at that roll. You’re fasting tomorrow” says Ana
What we see on the outside is not the same as within.
We just keep fighting the devil until the day we win.
My inner demon is seeping through,
One minute I’m fine,
The next I don’t know what to do.
It’s my vanity, it’s my sane,
All is good until done in vain.
I sit here waiting for your text, but knowing it’ll never come.
I sit here waiting for my death, but knowing it’ll never be done.
I sit here waiting for the love of my life, but knowing he’ll never show.
I sit here waiting, cutting my wrists, but that’s something you’ll never know.