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What now?

by alina_01
written by alina_01

There is this internal conflict that keeps occurring more and more frequently. My feelings are trying to resurface and my numbness is trying to fight it away. I have the strangest dreams but they reflect those feelings I won’t allow myself to feel when I’m awake. When I’m dreaming I do feel them even if it’s just a pinch, but I feel it. And I wake up with the Reminence of those feelings and I don’t know what to do. These feelings for the most part have to do with one person in particular and I wish I could talk to this person but I […]

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In the name of beautiful art… save my a**

by Bisban
written by Bisban

Ja-Nam. Dancing to the monkey.
Music of spirituality.
Hit me up, to go slap the devil.
Blue Hindu.
There used to be a gold champion.
He used to walk, when pavement was still true.
Hercules, champion, against m****** f******s.
Journey. Monkey. Vagabond. Through the air.
Seeking for the fresh scent; this is the Holy pilgrimage.
A blast. A story that was from the East. Long, long ago.
There used to be a child King. Day one, in the birth of demise.
The world, gone, so long ago. Heal me, do not let it take me.
Take me with you, Cosmic camaraderie.
Kung-Fu, warrior. A mountain […]

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I wish she would have known you

by ashley68@q.com
written by ashley68@q.com

Hey kiddo, I don’t know if you still wander around this site (you know who you are), but if you do I wanted to tell you something. Your great grandma died on this day sixteen years ago, I wish she would have had the chance to know you. She would have loved you so much, she never judged people who think like us. She would have told you how wonderful you are and given you a million and one reasons to never give up. I miss her and she isn’t here to say those things to you, but I am. I love you so much, […]

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The Blue Beetle

by Bisban
written by Bisban

Le Bettle.
The Ancient.
Into the dust. Millenium, this rust.
The Sphinx, of the Atlantis. God.
In the shape of Dog. What such life.

Lucifer has you by the ball. The horn penetrates.
Into the world that makes no sense.
Battle-cry. Battle-cry. Warriors of Atomic Era, tally zero.
We have already lost the countdown, thousands and millions.
The Devil in the ass. Fuck you, ************.
FBI, save my ass. Be a good cop. Be a good man.
Be a good shepherd. The blue assistance is dead.
Holy… Getting fucked in the ass. You let yourself and your mother.

Hey, that’s not how I wanna end, the night; […]

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The Decision

by SmokeAndLazers
written by SmokeAndLazers

It’s been 33 days since I decided I was going to take my own life.

On the first of April my beautiful princess died at age just 6months. This was the day I decided I was going to leave this evil world too.

This situation has been tragic due to the fact it was so sudden. There was nothing wrong with her, I put her to sleep, went to do some chores and came back to find her cold and blue, she was gone.

In the time I’ve had to spend without her, I have turned to the use of cocaine, I usually smoke weed but that hasn’t […]

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Same ole shit every day :(

by Lostasfuck
written by Lostasfuck

I’m so fucking tired of waking up every night. It takes everything in me to just go to work (I work nights). The only thing I look forward to is sleeping all weekend. Got some bars so it shouldn’t be a problem as long as people will leave me alone. Happy go lucky people make me fucking nauseous. My mind just doesn’t work that way. I see the negativity in everything. People always say to focus on the things that make you happy. I can’t make anyone understand that there is nothing that makes me happy except the fact that I have a bottle of […]

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Ain’t a “perfect family”?

by KIRA
written by KIRA

My family is …
Yesterday I heard my parents discussing, they were in their room and the door was closed (they talk so loud I can hear miles away), my father confessed he was cheating my mother.She is so stupid and people tell her harsh words everytime and she never does anything about it, she’s 45, how long will she bear everything in silence?.I don’t even know why they’re still married, but I’m sure they’re not in love anymore, plus my father is always getting into trouble and hurting other people’s feelings.He has been had struggles with alcohol and smoking since they married more than […]

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Education & Social – that feeling.

by vaaaaanna
written by vaaaaanna

Well fuck its been a while since I last posted something on here. Just another dose of disappointment and frustration, have no other way to vent but post it up. Because no one likes that sorta shit up on facebook! LOL

ANYWAYS, how is everyone doing? Great I hope, but by the looks of all these post. Not looking too flash atm huh? Don’t you wish you could just turn back time & change things only because you’ve disappointed yourself for the decisions that you’ve made and you don’t want anyone else to know? Yes, no…maybe? haha its is a terrible feeling, especially if you’re the […]

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A Few More Months!

by MissMisfit
written by MissMisfit

 

I don’t know what to say, what to do, or who I should tell? Should I make a video? A post online? A note? Or should I simply disappear, leaving no explanation. If they cared enough they’d already know what the cause was. By now, I’m sure from the context of the title and the website I’m at you can conclude I’m talking about the big day.. the day I die. Or maybe I don’t die? Maybe I’m reborn. My god, if that’s the case I just want to live a happier life next time. Oh, and my deadline is in August. I don’t know exactly when […]

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Am I Better Off Dead

by LetItGo
written by LetItGo

Everyday my heart breaks more.
The pieces are soon to be shattered.
It’s painful yes.
Do I tell anyone, no.
I’m better off dead.
I’m not anything special.
Just a lost person.
That won’t be finding their way around life.
Pain is getting too much.
I don’t know how to release it anymore.
Don’t know how to cope.
I don’t feel anything but pain.
Pain and heartbreak.
So heartbroken.
That no one truly loves me.
Family hates me.
Hates my style.
Hates my music.
Hates it.
Friends.
Don’t know the true me.
If they did they’d hate me too.
All I ever asked for was […]

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Serious

by wanderlustnebula
written by wanderlustnebula

I could seriously just end my life, just like that. Nothing’s stopping me, not even the words of my ”friends &family”. All I see is pain. Give me a break you deluded, sellf-servant prick. If you really believe in the words that you preach, get off your screens and onto the streets! Ahhh Bring Me The Horizon always has the right words… Yet people succeed flawlessly into ignoring people who have the right words. They don’t care about nothing but money anymore and it saddens me, even scares me. This world is a waste, humans have destroyed it, well most of it. There are still […]

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fuck you all this is the last song of the evening

by givin' up?
written by givin' up?

Ya estoy cansada… no planeo que ha alguien le interese saber o no lo que estoy escribiendo y menos lo que estoy sintiendo.

Me veo a mi y me doy cuenta que ya soy la clase de persona que nacio para ser “la otra mujer” estar sola.. ser algo que no pertenece a nadie que ha su vez no tiene a nadie, aunque esto suene muy tentador como simbolo de libertad, creo que puedo decir abjertamente que es completamente lo opuesto. Libertad es tener el poder de hacer lo que quieras con la certeza de que nada te frena.

Mi caso se da de una familia que […]

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lost and scared

by allienewman_
written by allienewman_

I don’t even know what to to anymore. I feel so alone and I have no one to talk to, so I guess that’s why I’m here. I’m 16 and I’ve been struggling with depression since my stepfather (he was like my dad) walked out on me when I was 11. My mom left him and I saw him for a little while after that, but eventually he told me he didn’t want to see me anymore because he had a girlfriend with a kid and wanted to start over. my biological dad isn’t around, and has never made any attempt to contact me. I […]

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Numb

by wanderlustnebula
written by wanderlustnebula

I feel numb to all happiness surrounding me. I smoke pot daily, just so I feel a thrill from this life, and a little escape from every day’s crap. I need a bigger trip. Like mush or acid. Or love. I’ve been waiting for someone to love for 17 years now. All I got was hurt and scared. I just need to kiss and hug and comfort someone.Talk and cry with them. Run and laugh and live with them. All I have is a broken sister, an overwhelmed mother and a hole in my heart. I feel so empty and even tho I love myself, […]

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i wanted to cut tonight

by Remnant The Unbroken
written by Remnant The Unbroken

But my uncle said that if I really wanted to show I love him I had to not cut tonight so tomorrow I could tell him “good news”.

I mean, I told him to not be mad if I slip, which is proving difficult….but if it will make him happy then okay, I’ll try my best not to. We’ve been through a lot together and he’s almost like my best friend….so I guess it’s the least I could do for him.

Ugh but I can hear that blade calling….”let me kiss your skin….it won’t hurt for long at all”

maybe some music and a good movie will […]

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I’m NOT a teachers pet! >:( :,,,(

by InvisibleGirl
written by InvisibleGirl

I have always loved school.  When I was a little girl I had a ritual, I would watch Martina McBride’s music video for Concrete Angel before school.  I also have eleven cousins and only two of which are older than me.  Because of this I’ve always wanted to help people, especially children.  It’s always been my goal.  I go to a special school that helps prepare students for a certain career that they are thinking of going into.  I go for Childhood Education and Human Services, and I LOVE the class.  My teachers have even told me that I’m the best student out of the […]

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