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Did you choose what music will be played at your funerals ?
I want to make a playlist for mine.
I’m looking for songs with a “happy” music but with “sad” lyrics. Fool’s garden – Lemon Tree for example.
Do you have an idea for me ? And what do you plan for you ?
My friend is also going through depression and he literally crying down the phone to me.. I hate to see him like this.. He is going through the stage of life where he hates his life and wants to just get on a bus and go somewhere where no one will find him, but I would.. I know I’m going through the same thing but it’s hard for me to tell him advice when I don’t really have anyone to give advice.. So I would like it if someone gave me some advice for him please as it’s hard for him and me
SHITSHITSHITSHITSHIT. I am so screwed. i made a secret instagram and then accidentally commented on one of my friends photos. (forgot i3 asnt signed into my normal acount) Â I deleted uit like a minute ago but she saw it and commented things like it made her cry. shw found out and now everythings all messed up. :/ WHY AM I SUCH A SCREW UP? 🙁
So I’m back… Lonely as ever… Why do I always end up here even if I made new friends…? I try to move on, but I always end up here…again…alone. I’m tired… I don’t want to try anymore… There’s no point left… I tried and I’m still trying now, but it’s not working…
What’s left when everything’s over? When you know the answers, when you understand?
When you are over the world, past the reality, into the truth… what’s over?
Why live, why die, when there are no more stages in this game?
Do you know that feel, when you already finished your exam, and everybody around you is still looking for the answers? The emptiness, the satisfaction, the uncertainty…
That feeling is the only thing left.
Im standing on an edge
Not scared of what will happen Next
I know i will fall and i do not care
I am scared of myself
I want to safe
I dont want to be ready
for when death pounds on my door
But i dont know how i i got this far gone
Im worried now
I dont know what to do
and i know im alone
when i fall i can stand back
I dont notice when i break
but i know when i need to stop
now i stuck in this place unsure
of weather or not to stop breathing
i found this site by accedent. i am 34 single parent that has lost everything exept my child. found something to hold me up and now i am loosing that to and i havent been coping and dont think i can cope anymore. the crying, the pain just won’t stop. it is now wensday i haven’t slept since fryday. every one tells me to hang on God will make it all beter. when is he going to do it when i sit with a pistol placed and cocked behind my ear. plus everyone thinks they know what i am going throu, but its not them going throu […]
Has anyone here been fired from a job because of their depression and having emotional breakdowns mostly every shift? Â I am too scared to find another job because I don’t want to disappoint anyone else.
My boyfriend doesn’t understand my depression and social anxiety. Â He thinks its a phase and that I will grow out of it. Â My depression gets worse everyday and I want him to realise the seriousness of this before it is too late. Â What should I do?
That’s it. Â It will be a mercy killing if I off myself. Â I’ve been pondering/obsessing over this for 6 years now and I think I’m getting to the point where I need to make a decision or live another 60 years of torment. Â I can’t keep putting this off.
Had a nasty argument with my mom today…. actually it was not an argument coz she just kept mum most of the time…. i am frustrated and i took it all out on her… i know i should not have done it…. i feel guilty… but guilt and remorse after the damage is done is such a waste of time… if there is another hell, i should be condemned to it for all eternity for being such an ungrateful person.
I wish i could fast forward my life to the very last hour and just die… without being able to look back and see what a […]
lithium. wow. that is what its come to. modern pharmacology has failed me. i had always thought that lithium was for the real nutcases. so i guess that moniker belongs to me as well. i am scared. reading about it and the side effects are scary. especially the toxicity thing. i am not very good at keeping myself adequately hydrated. drink too much soda and not enough water. don’t want to spend all my time on the john. not very conducive to getting any work done. i quit taking risperdal cold turkey. big mistake. i didn’t think 1 mg was a big deal. a week […]
Not being able to sleep is one of the worst feelings. Â Insomnia is definitely something to hate. Â I don’t go to bed until 4 or 5am. Â I then wake up around 12pm and just go do my normal day to day jobs. Â My boyfriend gets home at the mid afternoon. Â I hardly ever see him. Â Once he gets home, he comes up to our room to see me, spends 5 minutes with me, then goes to hangs out with his friends for ages, then doesn’t come back up until 7pm, then we make dinner, then we watch a movie (where no catch up or talking […]
I am speaking directly to people that suffer from severe depression and social anxiety. Â To people that know that they have been diagnosed with severe depression or social anxiety; please know that there are people out there just like you. Â Just like me. Â For five years I have been suffering from severe depression. Â I was diagnosed when I was 15 years old. Â Everyday is a struggle for me whether it is visible to the people around me or not. Â I don’t have anyone left to turn to. Â All of the people that are in my close circle of friends and family just ignore my call. […]
back to where i was a year ago. i remember this place so vividly and it haunts me how late i used to be up just to talk to the people here. it made me feel so much better. i would fall asleep with laptop in arms and when i awoke in the morning, pissed. Pissed that I woke up. Why can’t something miraculous happen while i’m asleep. I could give some terminal cancer patient another chance by leaving here and giving them my time. I always think that. I don’t want to be here but i’m forced to. like putting a boot on a […]
My mind tells me that I am a prisoner trapped in my own fuckin body. I so desperately need to be free from this little thing we call life, to just leave this God forsaken planet. I have so much rage, hate, and anger pent up in side me I literally feel as if I could explode, I try my best to keep it under lock an key (I mean what kind of man can’t even control his own emotions) but sometimes it gets the best of me and I usually end up trying to cave someone’s face in. And it feels great at the […]
Is it normal to take this long to get to sleep? for the last few days so many things have been on my mind. lately its been taking me at least 3 hours to get to sleep. i feel so tired, but i just cant manage to sleep well. i feel like i am on the verge of insomnia. Â ive tried listening to music. ive tried reading a book, and even just forcing my eyes shut and lying in bed for hours.
i need to clear my head.
but i dont know how.
still here……..
I’ve read a few stories of sexual abuses, and I can relate. I guess that’s a round about way of putting it. After finding myself with no place to live at eighteen, I joined the Marines. After boot camp, I married my high school sweetheart, who then had an affair with my neighbor while I was at work. Shortly after discovering that, while working through a law suit, I had to then work through no pay due for three months… Begging charities to put food on the table for my wife who was sleeping around behind my back.
I meet a new woman, who’s the love […]
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